Steven is my primary guide, or Companion Traveler as he likes to call himself.
I first met Steven in 2003, a few months after my spiritual awakening. In my conversations with him, he told me a bit about himself, specifically his last life on Earth. When he told me the story of his life and death, I felt transported back into time and experienced his life as if I had been there to witness it.
When I asked Steven to tell me about his last life, this is what he showed me and told me:
In my mind I saw a vision of small cottage in the countryside. It was made of wood and was burning, smoke rising out of the top. It was obvious something awful had occurred. There were burned items strewn about and what I think was a body, crumpled and obviously dead, near the clearing by the house. I felt overwhelmed by many different emotions – sadness, anguish, fear, and anger. I sensed that Steven reacted this way and that I was feeling how he felt at that moment. I was also seeing what he saw as he topped the hill on his way home from working in the fields. When he saw the bodies of his wife and son, anger filled him and he wanted to find those responsible for their deaths. The grief and loss I felt from him was beyond any I have ever felt in this life.
Then I was taken to the moment of his death. It must not have been long after he found his wife and son’s dead and partially charred bodies because the scene was still the same – a small cottage destroyed by fire and charred objects strewn about the clearing that surrounded it. I could see Steven struggling with a man while two other men watched. They were wearing armor and I could see a dark red colored cloth but am unsure if it was clothing, a flag or blood. Steven was fighting this man with his bare hands when he was struck from above and fell to the ground. He died there in the same spot his wife and son died. His body burned and left to be scavenged.
When I asked who was responsible, he said Mongol raiders.
When I asked when and where this occurred he said Mongolia, around the time of Genghis Khan, sometime around 1100AD.
He told me he has not lived another life since and that he has spent all the time since that life preparing to be a guide, my guide.
Update: A friend asked me if I still communicate with Steven. This was my response which I felt should be shared:
My relationship with my guidance has shifted tremendously over the years. I no longer feel the personality I refer to as Steven, at least not like I did when you knew me. I have had several Kundalini rising events that have led to this transformation and given me a new understanding of my experiences here on Earth. Therefore, Steven has blended into this new understanding and also transformed. He is a reflection of the aspects of me that exist in other dimensions and times. He represents the masculine, supportive, energy I am working to fully integrate while in this human, feminine form. Most of the energies I communicate with as “guides” take on a masculine form because of my human, feminine need for a strong, supportive masculine presence in my life. As long as I lack a physical, masculine that has stepped into their full power and can support me fully in my feminine, I will continue to seek out the masculine in this way, to pull it from within in order to provide for me what is otherwise lacking outwardly. It is sad that this world/Earth is in such a state that the feminine is left to be both the passive and active, left to exhaust herself by trying to be what she is not, trying to put into balance what she alone cannot possibly do without help.