It’s Time

Major changes taking place in my life at this time. I have been feeling overwhelmed and a bit lost. I have been drinking a glass of wine every night. Last night I had two. It worked. I felt extremely happy and optimistic when I went to bed. Then I couldn’t sleep despite feeling the wonderful heavy feeling from the wine. My guidance was exceptionally clear, which surprised me. I had exceptional clarity, too. I was told, “Pay attention to your dreams tonight. They will answer your questions.”

Dream: Old Crone and Present from a Friend

I recall vaguely what led up to this dream. I had deleted a playlist of music. This was done purposefully. It was a joint playlist of me and my husband. My husband was there and agreeable. We were looking at music to create a new playlist and I remember saying, “Too bad we didn’t save some of the old music. There were some good songs on there.” There were computer glitches at this time. The screen kept flickering.

The scene shifted and I was walking along a road in the mountains. It was cool and there was moisture in the air and on the ground as if it had just rained. These mountains were very lush and tropical-like with rugged outcroppings of volcanic rock. They reminded me Hawaii, though I have never been there.

I was with a female friend and had a car, though I do not recall being inside of it. We were just cresting the top of the mountain when a very old woman crossed our path. This old woman was nearly naked, with a huge stomach, very wrinkled skin, and breasts that hung so low they poked out the bottom of her dress. I remember thinking she was pregnant but then just realized she very old and ugly but I didn’t judge her for it. It was obvious she had been around a long time. I respected her for that.

She walked very slow, shuffling along on bare feet. I followed behind. Eventually she stopped and said to us, “I need to turn around.” This indicated to me that I needed to back up and allow her to do that. So I backed the car into a side street that was paved with stone. I walked along the stone and it poked my feet. When I looked down I saw the white rocks were pointy but not sharp. It was very uncomfortable to walk on.

When I turned I saw the old woman pulling one of her legs out of a very deep mud hole. I heard my friend say, “Be careful, don’t get stuck in the mud.” The mud was a yellowish-brown color and quite thick. I remember being grateful that I had not gotten stuck in it.

The scene shifted and I was walking inside of what appeared to be an art gallery. The art was made of wood and my female friend showed me one. It was curved and resembled the skeleton of a boat. I held it in my hand and saw that it was very similar to a light language symbol. The woman said, “It’s a gift. She made it for you.” She pointed and I looked and saw my friend Yvonne.

I went over to Yvonne and hugged her. I started to cry in deep, heaving sobs. Yvonne said to me, “You need a break.” As I hugged her and cried I heard, “You’re not alone.”

I woke up still crying and could not get the tears to let up. For some reason I felt I needed to look at the clock. The time was 1:11am. The song Litost was going through my head again. The part, “I’ll never be whole again” but also the part, “Bury your burdens, baby. Make them all disappear.” It took me a while to return to sleep.

Dream: Burning Forest

In this dream I was sitting in the middle of a clearing in a forest. I dropped a lit match and watched it catch fire to the fallen pine needles. It slowly spread to the underbrush and trees. I just sat there as if waiting for something. The fire began to blaze out of control. Over the top of my head and all around me I could see and hear the roaring fire. Yet I just sat there.

Then a masculine voice said to me, “You can’t stay here. You have to go now.” I saw the tops of the trees falling in flames around me. It was so close I could feel the heat of the fire. The message got through and I got up and walked out of the center of the fire.

I ended up standing outside of a building. It was like I was transported to another place in an instant. It was very dark. I couldn’t see anything. It worried me because I didn’t know where I was or what I would do to survive in this new, unknown place. I felt completely and utterly alone and that was by far the worst part.

The voice said to me, “You are safe. You are not alone.” There was conversation here about where I was; what this dark, unknown place represented. I was very lucid by this time and listening carefully to what was being relayed to me. While I listened, I heard a familiar song – Imagine Dragons, It’s Time, “This house doesn’t burn down slowly. To ashes. To ashes.”

When I woke up I had tears in my eyes again.



I start my job tomorrow. Part of me is looking forward to it and another part isn’t. I am assured by my guidance that it will be a good experience. We will see. At least the money is good.

The emotional outbursts I am experiencing are very strange to me. I had them when I was in Tennessee, too. One time hugging my friend Yvonne just like in the dream. I don’t do that kind of thing! lol I am a hide-in-my-room-and-cry person. I don’t understand, really. It is like I am grieving but at the same time as if I am exploding in an overwhelming amount of love. It feels like my heart can’t contain it and so it just floods out of me. Honestly, it reminds me of when I was pregnant. Ugh! I was a mess when I was pregnant. Always crying at the drop of a dime. I HATED it. I feel weak and pathetic when I cry and can’t stop. It is upsetting to me and so then I cry more (eyeroll). And no, not pregnant. lol

There are changes coming, some already underway. These changes (the ones I know of) do not trigger the emotional outbursts. In fact, I feel nearly emotionless regarding them. This is why the crazy crying episodes are so odd. WTF is happening to me? Who the hell knows. I am just glad I have been able to keep it together in front of people so far. Last thing I want is to go to work and someone give me a look of sympathy and then lose it right then and there. Please God don’t let that happen. lol

Pray my first day goes well. It will be an early one.


Stella Nova

At one point last night when I was wide awake after an especially vivid dream, I became aware of a stream of consciousness entering my energy field. It was directed at me and spoke to me. I knew it was Pleiadian and it felt connected to my guidance,though I could not determine if it was from one specific individual or all of them. My heart and solar plexus were especially sensitive and my entire energy body felt different, though how I can’t say.

My awareness of this consciousness stream seemed to initiate a communication that was both complete Knowing intermixed with telepathy. I knew that the stream was coming from a space craft of some sort. I also knew I was part of the ground crew and they were checking in – passing on information or mission notes to me.

I asked for the name of the vessel and heard, “Stella Nova.” I thought about it and wondered what their mission was. I heard, “Colonization of…..” The planets that were mentioned were not familiar and I cannot recall their names now. I do remember they had letters attached to them, like “A” followed by a numerical sequence. Some of them were actual names, but none of them from the Milky Way Galaxy, at least not that I know of.

Then I heard that I was receiving the transmission at a frequency of  2.878 Hz. This went completely over my head.

There was an exchange here involving mathematical equations. I saw them, understood them at some level, and was discussing the formula in algebraic terminology. I remember balancing the equation, but why I was doing this or what the equation was for is lost to me.

In recalling this exchange, I felt the need to search for brainwave frequencies to see where 2.878 Hz fell. Turns out, that frequency is considered to be within the range of Delta waves – 0-4 Hz.  Those who have high amounts of Delta brainwaves while awake are more empathetic and tuned into the unconscious. They are also associated with an all-encompassing bliss state, intuition, paranormal experiences and OBEs/astral projection. Sounds like me in a nutshell! lol

In researching brainwave frequency, I came across the Doppler Effect and equations that were eerily similar to what I remember balancing during last night’s exchange. The wavelength equations on this website are the most similar except the variables were not the same.

It was not until this morning that I finally understood the meaning behind the name of the ship. Stella Nova translates to “New Star”. If you read yesterday’s blog post, you will see the connection. As I was researching Stella Nova, I came across this article. When I read the part entitled, “A Star is Born” I knew without a doubt that the name of the ship was directly connected to yesterday’s message.

I wanted to add that throughout the night and into this morning I have had an odd feeling of newness. A trepidation that is becoming very difficult to ignore. The feeling must be akin to how a fledgling feels when it’s brothers and sisters have already jumped from the nest and taken flight. The little bird knows it has wings and knows they are used to fly, but has never flown before and doesn’t know if it can. The drop is scary and the nest is comfortable so it wants to stay where it is safe. But eventually it will have to leave the nest and fly out into the big, wide, new world.

I feel like a part of me is dying. It is a very real feeling and one I have felt before. But this time the feeling is much, much bigger.

Image credits: Birth of a Star

Dream: 38 Special

Another eventful night. What is going on? Is it just me or are others experiencing something similar? Perhaps it is the up and coming new moon in Scorpio? Preparation for new beginnings. Clearing out the old to make way for the new.

I have way more to messages/Knowing than I will have time to write about. I’m experiencing another information overload….download….whatever you want to call it. Half of the time I don’t know it is happening. Well most of my waking day I don’t notice. At night it’s another story.

Dream: 38 Special

I woke up with a start from a dream sequence about guns at around 11:30pm. I was handling all kinds of guns, looking them over and  discussing the best one to carry on my person – light, small, easy to use. I had my Dad’s Colt 45 semi-automatic pistol in my hand. It is heavy and difficult to use with a bad-ass kick that could throw your shoulder out if you aren’t careful. I put it down, knowing it was no good for me. I then looked at a Ruger 357 Magnum revolver. I knew this gun and said, “Hell no.” My ex-husband had one and I knew enough to know it wasn’t for me. The man then showed me a small revolver. It was black and compact. He gave it to me and I heard, “38 Special”.

At this time I had memories of my past seemingly hit me all at once. Each gun had a story and the 38 Special had been a gun my mom owned when she and my father were going through a divorce. It had been suggested that she have one for personal protection and I remember seeing it as a small child and then later when she showed it to me as a teenager and told me her side of the divorce drama. My Dad’s gun was found after his death stored in a locked box, loaded and cocked. The serial number was filed off of it suggesting he had not wanted it to be traced. That was just how my father was back then. The Ruger was my ex’s and the gun he took on camping and hunting trips just in case a bear showed up. He loved that gun. I don’t think I ever fired it.


1970’s Colt 45 similar to the one I have.

Returning to the dream I began to think of which gun would be best for ending a person’s life. I was told any of them would do. There was discussion then about my own life and I had a wave of melancholy wash over me. I have been considering selling my Dad’s Colt 45 but had not done it since the serial number was missing. I had been planning on buying a 9mm pistol or some other small handgun. The topic of suicide was brought up and I was reminded of the consequences of such a decision. This I knew and knew well.

The guns then disappeared and in their place were hamburger patties on a grill. I remember thinking, “WTF?” lol The man I was with was laughing and talking about the “game” and how nice it would be to just enjoy it.

I woke up hearing the song Litost. The specific lyrics running through my head were, “But if you stay. If you just stay for the night…” I was reminded to keep going, to hang on and remember my mission. Things would get better and soon. I rolled over, ignoring my guidance because I have heard this message before and their idea of “soon” is never near what mine is.


Dream: Turtle Pool

I had many other dreams but this is a vivid one. I was visiting a house that had an above ground swimming pool. The pool looked like a pond, though, with murky, brown water and even a tree growing in it. The woman who owned it said it was purposeful and pointed to two, large snapping turtles. They were enormous and swam toward the tree. I remember thinking they were a pair.

We walked around the banks of the pool and I saw another turtle in the distance. Beside it was a fawn and I pointed to it saying, “Look, it’s a baby deer!” At that moment the deer moved and morphed into a small, blonde monkey. It dashed across the island toward us and I remember thinking I had it all wrong. I became lucid then, trying to figure out the meaning of the symbols in the dream.

When I woke up I thought about the monkey and the Chinese zodiac. Just so happens 2016 is the year of the Monkey. I am a fire Dragon but I don’t know much about it other than what I have read on those place mats at Chinese restaurants. lol My idea of the monkey, though, is that they tend to make decisions without thinking first and this can get them into trouble. Sounds familiar. lol They are definitely NOT patient and wise like the turtle.


There were other dreams, but I won’t go into detail here. My considerations regarding these two dreams are that I am surrounded in protection and being reminded to take my time regarding my current path and decisions. Slow and steady wins the race. Patience is a virtue. Don’t give up. Etc, etc.

Life reviews have been a dream pattern since my return from Tennessee. If I have vivid dreams, there is usually at least one section where my past returns to me all at once and cycles and patterns are revealed in an instant. The Knowingness that comes with it is beyond my human ability to completely digest. It is an all-pervading Knowingness that comes replete with a Divine connection to Source.

Symbols: Star, Caterpillar and Butterfly

Some very interesting messages in the form of symbols coming to me over the past week.

5-Pointed Star/Pentagram

About a week ago while at the playground with my son, I found a silver ring laying in the pebbles. It was a ring with a silver star on the top. I kept it, thinking I would give it to my daughter but it was too big for her. Adult-sized. I lost track of it but it kept showing up in my path, daily and multiple times.

Then, my son brought me a tiny star eraser two days ago. He tried to stick it directly into my eye. Then he put it over his own eye over and over again asking me to look at him. At this point I felt I needed to pay attention. Not only to the star but also to my son. It was like someone was telling me, “Your son will show you things. Pay attention.”

I told my guides, “Okay, if the star is a message, then send it again.” This morning, the star ring showed up in my path again. And near the star ring was another little star eraser.


Around the same time as the stars started showing up, a caterpillar showed up. At the playground my daughter spotted a tiny caterpillar in the grass. He was only an inch long and greenish brown so I don’t know how she saw him. He was very well camouflaged. My youngest came and watched as she inspected the tiny creature. We had a discussion then about the life cycle of the butterfly and how the caterpillar would turn into one eventually.


Image of the page my son was obsessed with. He kept pointing from picture 2 to picture 4 over and over and also to the page numbers.


Similarly, butterflies began to show up. The monarchs are migrating and every time I go to the park with my son we see monarchs. One day, however, there were so many flying overhead that I remember knowing it was a sign and to pay attention. It was beautiful to see them in mass like that! I hadn’t seen so many since 2003 when I was on a lake in North Texas and ended up in the middle of a mass of them. 2003 was the year of my initial spiritual awakening.

Additionally, my son brought me a plastic toy butterfly a few nights ago. He kept putting it on me and talking about it, saying, “Butterfly” over and over.

Then last night he brought me a book about butterflies and asked me to read it over and over and over again. The book is about the life cycle of the butterfly. It’s called Busy Butterflies. The specific part he was obsessed with was the pages showing the four stages of the cycle. He kept saying, “Caterpillar. Butterfly. Caterpillar. Butterfly” pointing to the pictures of each in the cycle. Then he would point to the page numbers. Page 9. Page 8. Page 9. He was obsessive about it.


Toy butterfly my son was playing with and showing me.


The pentagram or five-pointed star is symbolic of the four elements and Spirit. It can symbolize mind/spirit over matter. Rather than go into detail, this website gives a good explanation of the pentagram symbolism and use. This website is also useful.

Personally, however, I have seen the star as a message before. A very long time ago – 2005 or maybe earlier – I was shown the star as a symbol of myself and my spiritual progress. At that time, I was shown that I was in between the points on the star. I really didn’t understand the meaning of this other than to show my progress and at the time I was very disappointed because I was not at the topmost point where I knew I should be.

Add this to the APEX dream I just had and it appears my guidance is trying to show me that I have made it to a point on that star. Whether it is the topmost point (representing Spirit or the I AM) or not is not clear yet.

The butterfly and caterpillar messages are clear. A transformation is occurring/in process or maybe already complete.

Numerologically speaking, 8 is my lifepath number and 9 is the number of completion in numerology. This year, 2016, is a 9 year (2+1+6 = 9). The way I see it, the 9 indicates a transformation is about to be complete. Thus, the butterfly is about to emerge from its cocoon.



Mission: Illuminate Mankind

Wow, where to start. Lots to write about…..

Okay, well, I will likely have to split this all up into two posts to make any sense of it.

Dream: White Winged Unicorn

I was at an amusement center of some kind. One of those indoor kinds with video games, food, bumper cars, etc. People were everywhere. Kids especially. I was with my family, but none of them were recognizable except my middle son. There was a place where there was suppose to have been a bowling ally put in but it was not there and someone directed me to the restroom. Inside it was very cramped and two women came in and got into a shower fully clothed. The shower was literally right up against the back of the toilet and positioned above it so that the person on the toilet was underneath the shower. I got sprayed by the water and got grossed out.  I left as soon as I could. Amusement park is enjoyment of life. Shower is renewal and forgiveness.

I went outside and everyone was talking about this new ride. I saw a billboard sign of the ride but can’t recall the name now. My guides tell me the name was “Apex” so I take their word for it. We walked to the entrance and I looked up. I saw a horse-shaped orange statue high above us. Then it moved and I knew it wasn’t a statue. One of the kids pointed and yelled to look. The orange horse creature then moved and as it did it morphed into this brilliantly white winged unicorn.

I lost the family group then because I was staring at the winged unicorn. It became very large then, as if I or him shifted positions so that we were much closer. He was on this ramp leading up at a very steep angle. He could not go anywhere but up because he was pinned in by railing on both sides of the ramp. He was up on his hind legs kicking at the railings and trying to get out only to get stuck and have to stay on the ramp. His horn was exceptionally long and he was using it like a sword. He was neighing very loudly and snorting in anger. Eventually he reared up and took off, galloping up the ramp at breakneck speeds. I watched him reach the end, leap up into the air and fly off into the distance. It was magnificent. He was the most beautiful creature. Winged unicorn is a mixture of unicorn and Pegasus. Pegasus is swiftness and bravery in a stormy relationship. Unicorn is high ideals, hope and insight into a situation. White is purity.

Stunned, I walked into the APEX ride location.  I was late. It was meant to start at 11. My family group was already inside. The ticket agent asked for my ticket.  An old man from my group gave it to the ticket lady. She looked at the ticket and said, “This is a very old ticket. Ancient.” My interpretation of this was that it came from the 1980’s and I saw in my mind this very old and tattered ticket stub. A ticket is the start of something and the price one has to pay to gain admittance. This one is old, like I’ve been trying to gain admittance for a long time.

I went inside but had a gallon water jug with me. I set it on the floor because I couldn’t take it with me. As I went in, I saw a grouping of chairs with at least a dozen jugs of water on them. Contained or controlled emotion.

Inside was pitch black. It was like a movie theater without the screen. I felt around, calling for my group. The old man grabbed my hand and said, “We’re sitting on the floor” and led me away from the first grouping of seats. I wonder what kind of ride this was. It felt like a screen was located on the ceiling.



I woke up with a start knowing the dream was a good message. I saw it was 5am. I had slept straight through the night, not waking even once. The winged unicorn was very vivid in my memory. I loved winged unicorns as a child. In fact, I was obsessed with drawing them (and horses) until we moved in 1986.

I fell into the in-between. Here I saw a black stallion rearing up and neighing loudly. He was kicking his feet at masses of clutter and several people that were surrounding him. The scene was very colorful. The clutter was very bright, especially the color red.

This vision brought me out of the in-between. I noticed the contrast between the white winged unicorn and the black stallion (one of my all-time favorite childhood movies BTW). Too tired to think about it, I attempted sleep.

This time I entered a scene where I was floating or moving through a tunnel filled with various designs and geometric shapes. It was as if I was flying through inter-dimensional space or some kind of wormhole. In front of me written very clearly was the word, “Pleiades”. The E, I, A, and D were bright white and the other letters dim in comparison. Then I both saw and heard, “Illuminate Mankind”.

I came out of my reverie and felt different. I can’t explain it really. It was clear to me that I was being communicated with by my group. They were informing me of my mission but also of their mission. The Pleiadian mission is to illuminate mankind. It couldn’t have been made more clear. lol This is also my mission (finally! Thank you!). I wonder now what is meant by “illuminate”. Does it mean to “make bright” like the letters in my vision? Or to “make lucid or clear”? Or “enlighten as with knowledge”?  Probably all of them.


Just Jump

I’ve been sick for a couple of days now. It started with an awful sore throat and now it’s all congestion. This must be what snails feel like. lol

I had difficulty going to sleep last night because I got really upset and angry at everyone and everything. I feel abandoned and alone. This came with a feeling of disconnect from my life/location/family. There was also an upset over going back to work. Even though I will make really, really, really (yeah) good money for the temporary position, I am angry at “having” to go back to work.

I fell asleep around midnight both because of thinking too much and this miserable cold. I became lucid and then fully conscious but the dream continued despite me being wide awake. This time I was even physically active, walking around my bedroom. It was like I was sleep walking but then I wasn’t. I was wide awake, eyes open, and dreaming at the same time.

The dream itself I can’t remember in full now. What I recall most vividly is being in a darkened room that seemed to extend forever in one direction. Like a very elongated rectangle. I was looking for a door, an exit, and feeling along the side of the wall for a door knob. I could see, but barely. There was no light but I could make out shapes and distance.

I knew I was up and walking both in the dream and in physical reality. It was like I was two parts of me – the dreamer and the one in a physical body, awake and aware. I walked along the edge of my room and this unfamiliar room simultaneously. The room I was most aware of was the dream room, though I could tangibly feel the physical room.

I found the door knob and turned it, opening it a crack. At that moment I became confused. Which room was I in? In the dream room I was opening a door along the longer side of the room. I could see far in front of me and there was a slight grayish colored light that turned to a white speck in the distance. I could see more features of the room at this time. It had no furniture and seemed almost cartoon-like with rough edges colored in various shades of grays like someone had sketched it with a pencil.

In my physical reality room I was opening the closet door and knew it didn’t lead anywhere.

When I recognized which door I was physically opening, the closet door, I snapped out of the waking dreamstate I was in and completely shifted into physical reality. I then saw only my bedroom and my hand was on the doorknob. I shut the closet door and went to the bedroom door and opened it. By this time I was wondering what had just happened and went back to bed. Thoroughly confused and disoriented it took me a while to feel like myself again. Then the message became clear to me and I was not happy about it.

The message was obviously that I had opened a door that, like the closet door, led nowhere. It would not allow exit from my bedroom (situation/issue).

Dream: Performance

I somehow fell back to sleep. This time I dreamed of watching myself perform an act from behind a pane of glass. Inside the glass I could see myself as if I were on video. I was talking about my life, my past experiences, my relationships with men, my lessons and my spiritual transformation. I had memories of my entire life at this time. I was very bubbly and happy, even dancing at one point as images of flowers were projected on me.

When I woke from this dream at 4am I knew I had been reviewing my life. I did not like how happy and unconcerned I was in the dream. It was like I was just going with the flow and cared not about the outcomes of my choices. It was just a fun game. This made me angry. As if to egg me on, I was reminded of how I was as a child – care-free and unconcerned about the outcomes of my actions, just like the me in the dream. I understood the message but was not interested in listening. I went into despair at this point, ending up in tears and angry at my guides and my impossible situation. Again I felt abandoned and kept telling my guidance I can’t do this alone.

I must have fallen asleep but don’t remember doing so.

Vector illustration of a man lock up in prison

Dream: Trapped

I entered a room that had a church feeling to it. I tiptoed around two men with vacuum cleaners. They were vacuuming two very different carpeted floors in the same room. The floor I recall most was a shag carpet in an off-white, almost yellowish color. There was a moment when I confused the vacuuming with mowing because the carpet in one area was so long and green it resembled grass.

I tried to walk past one man, the one vacuuming the pale colored carpet, but another man was there talking to him and ignored my request to move. He seemed to be interviewing the man who was mowing asking him questions about his Christian upbringing. I finally interrupted and said more loudly, “Excuse me, can I please get through?” He said something I can’t recall but it was rude and continued to stand in my way. I finally said, “It doesn’t matter now, the opening is gone.” I then walked past him and through another space between the carpeted floors.

Then I was inside a room. It was small, maybe 10×10 foot square. There were two doors besides the one I came in but they were shut. The room was painted a light brown color and unfurnished. Very ugly and boring overall. I attempted to go through one of the doors and a woman told me, “Sorry, you can’t leave. They are cleaning and no one can leave until they are done.” I questioned this and attempted to go through one of the doors and a man stood in my way. He said something regarding religion like “cleanliness is next to Godliness“. I remember thinking he was a crazy Bible thumper.

I awoke briefly and was reminded of something my guidance said to me the other day – “We are rapists of ideology.” I understood then what this dream was about – that my beliefs were trapping me; I was forcing them upon myself. I did not want to hear this and told them I wanted out. I just wanted to leave.

Dream: Pile of Leaves

This was a very brief dream, almost more of an in-between experience than a dream. I was picking up leaves, one by one, and putting them in a pile. They were all dead and brown, at that crunchy, dead leaf stage. The pile was little but substantial enough to fill half a wheel barrow. I remember holding one in my hand and hearing, “Leaves”. I looked at the pile and then realized I was dreaming and receiving a message. I immediately became irritated and said to them, “I get it. Leaves = leave.” I saw the pile of leaves and knew each leaf in the pile was a reason not to leave. I was then reminded of a blog post I recently read. It was a channeled message and was very short. It said simply, “We ask that you stop waiting to be rescued.” I heard then, “Why don’t you just leave already.”

I then began to list off all the reasons why I can’t leave. There were so, so many.

I heard/knew then, “There will always be a list of reasons. All of them very convincing.”

Then I was saying to my guidance, “But now I have a job and start work on Monday. I need that money. It’s too much money to pass up. And I need to be here for Christmas and there’s a birthday in January….March….May….” And on and on. Despite these reasons I still felt crappy about everything.

Then all the night’s lessons via the dreamstate hit home. Yet even then, even with all the messages, messages that make complete sense to me, I can’t seem to move. I’m frozen. And today I have laryngitis because of this damn cold. Yeah.

Then this morning, as I was reading through FB comments, I saw that a friend wrote, “Jump, Dayna Stone. Jump.” I’m like, Nooooooooo you have to PUSH me.

No wonder I’m sick.


Mention of finding my power spot in my recent reading with Eric Starwalker reminded me of a map I was given by an astrologer back in 2007. The map indicated areas that were ideal locations for me to live in. I had not known what the proper term of such a map was until a friend mentioned astrocartography. I knew instantly that was what it was.

I was able to find the original map. I thought I had been told the most ideal living location for me was near Los Angeles, California. Upon inspecting the old map, I did find that for the purpose of career, livelihood, fame and fortune, that location would be a good location for me. Apparently, San Francisco is also a good location, but for a home-base and ideal for the purpose of self-healing and healing abilities. I remember him telling me that if I located myself between L.A. and San Francisco then I would be able to enjoy the benefits of both locations. He recommended California if I intended to magnify my spiritual abilities and career options (this was my goal at the time). I also recall the astrologer telling me the other good locations were near Chicago and Central Texas (where I am located now). The map confirms it but I made no notations as to why these locations were a good fit for me. Wishing now I had taken more notes!

I generated a free map on It is interesting to me that this current map has way more lines across it. It gives much more detailed information than the one I was given in 2007. On this map it actually looks like Knoxville, Tennessee is a good place for me to locate to, depending on my goals that is. I have never been to Knoxville but I was very close when I was in the state recently. Florida and Northern Georgia may also be good spots. The Knoxville area has three lines, two of which intersect directly over that area. The two that intersect are Venus, labeled DS and in green, and the Moon, labeled MC in blue. The other nearby one is Neptune, labeled MC in purple. Florida also would have the influence of the latter of the two plus further influence by Mercury. The Northern part of Florida, Georgia and South Carolina would have the influence of all four. Based on the map, it looks like Augusta, GA falls right in the middle of all four lines. gives explanations of each of the lines on the map to help you understand what influence those lines have on the location.


Venus is symbolized by a circle which is located above a cross. The circle represents the spirit, which has conquered and transformed the cross, the symbol of matter. These two different principles combine in a new form to create a synthesis of earthly limitation and spiritual completeness. Thus Venus is seen to be the search for unity and a balancing of opposite poles.

Venus located along one of the main axes ensures an extremely pleasant and relaxing time. Social life takes precedent, and meeting people is a more harmonious activity. The more balanced level of energy at these locations promote mutual understanding, and allows for new friendships to be formed. Love relationships are intensified, in fact, these are perfect conditions for getting married and enjoying one’s honeymoon.

Venus energy lines are great for one’s outer appearance and a healthy sense of self-worth. Sensual appeal and erotic powers of attraction are intensified, and inhibitions disappear. We seem to trust the flow of life in a relaxed and easy manner, and delight in earthly pleasures. The danger, of course, exists that our love for hedonistic indulgence makes us passive and indifferent.

Venus energy lines inspire our creative abilities and talents. This leads us to discover a world filled with beautiful art which, in turn, inspires us to be creative ourselves. A more refined sense of aesthetic pleasure could seek expression in music, pottery, sculpture or in painting.

In these regions, the fashion and design industry fare particularly well, as do any skilled trades. Furthermore, financial enterprises could hardly find a more lucrative environment.


Mercury assumes a special place amongst the planets. In mythology, Mercury is the Hermaphrodite, a double-natured being, whose sexuality is neutral. It is the only sign to be symbolized by three basic elements: the cross, circle and semicircle. Body, spirit and soul combine to form a united principle, which is Mercury’s task – to be a mediator between body, mind and spirit.

The four main energy lines, when combining with the planet Mercury, become places for communication, trade and every form of human contact. The idea is to communicate with others, form new contacts and expand one’s knowledge. These places, therefore, lend themselves to the exchange of information, correspondence and publishing.

Thought processes are stimulated, and the use of our mental and verbal abilities is increased. There is more interest in social activities, to learn foreign languages and a willingness to abandon old points of view. Flexibility is more apparent at Mercury energy spots, and we are more open other points of view. Neutrality and flexibility are key words.

Generally speaking, Mercury favors methodical procedures. Being able to differentiate, ability to take in clear details and being dexterous, predestined these places for every type of career and business enterprise.

These are the places for journalists and authors. The latest and greatest on any topic or trend can be found here. Ideas abound, and the ability to grasp concepts rapidly aid both work and solve attending problems.

Mercury lines ensure movement and change; there is rarely any boredom. There is more likely to be a certain level of stress and nervous tension. This increased pace also leads to superficiality and prevents deeper connections. This lack of connection can often be in the way of putting ideas into practice, and they remain as ideas only.

The Moon:

The Moon is symbolized by a semicircle, which represents the soul and the emotions of the individual. Its round form reminds one of a harbor which offers shelter and protection. At the same time, this also represents the sign of the waxing Moon which reinforces the great force and changeability of this cosmic principle. This symbol can also be seen as a type of hollow mirror, which collects the sunlight and sends it back to Earth.

Apart from the Sun, the Moon is the most important component within the horoscope, and in Astro Maps, its lines are also considered of major importance. The Moon’s energy lines really affect the emotional and psychic domain, which creates an internal focus.

Under its influences, we become aware of our past. Of interest and concern are childhood, parents and family. We remember the past, which creates nostalgic sentiments and may tempt us to daydream. We meet the past to work through unresolved issues, which can be well finalised.

Deeply hidden needs and desires are awakened through the contact with the Moon’s energy lines. Emotions determine action and push aside rational thought. At times, we feel and behave like a child. There is the danger to have a somewhat dreamy, too simplistic and naïve view to life.

Since the Moon embodies the female side, it really depends on where this rather passive, soft and submissive side is shown in life. Especially males with traditional patriarchal views on life won’t find life too easy at such locations, and will probably experience more intense confrontations. But, in the final analysis, these experiences could prove both healing and liberating.

The Moon continually changes. After a period of growth, a change occurs and “development” leads into the opposite direction, at which point, the cycle starts once again with the New Moon. Moon energy lines are great to use to initiate change or to create a new start. The effectiveness is greatly enhanced if a connection is made to the appropriate place during the corresponding Moon phase. A simple rule applies: a waxing Moon is good for those enterprises and projects requiring growth. The waning Moon supports processes requiring change and finalization.


The planet Neptune was discovered in Berlin in the year 1846 by the astronomer Galle. Its icon, of an upturned cup, symbolizes both the Moon and the soul. The cross which extends through the semicircle points out the unity to the world. The arrows, pointing upwards, symbolizes a higher sphere of body, mind and soul.

Neptune’s energies are extremely subtle and non-material. Its effects are difficult to discern, and act as undercurrents, which usually escape the rational mind. In an Astro Map, Neptune points out regions of intense and transcendental qualities. Meditation, spiritual practices and a more contemplative lifestyle become more intense at such localities. If you are keen to get in touch with these spiritual dimensions, and to step into another reality, then this is definitely your place. The borders between the subtle and the material planes are never more permeable than at these locations. Boundaries disappear, the world becomes full of secrets, dreams and reality appear to merge.

Artists appreciate the inspiring and sensitive nature of these surrounds. Both romance and nostalgia can become a source of new endeavours. The subtle qualities of this higher plane promote intuition, and inspire creative processes. Melancholic mood swings interchange with feelings of cosmic connectedness.

On the other hand, these places do not lend themselves to the more material aspects of daily life. There is no solid base, so a danger exists for unrealistic thinking, the consequences of which can be self-deceit, intrigue and losses. Illusions and false hopes can foster a desire to escape from this world, or can take refuge in the use of alcohol and drugs.

Neptune embodies the universal principle of love, whose energy goes beyond the fixed boundaries of the individual. We are more open to greater connections, and are willing to overcome egotistical needs. A deeper sympathetic tendency exists for the plight and suffering of fellow mankind. Neptune places are most suitable for the service to others, and also for work undertaken in a charitable organisation.

My Current Location

The reason my current location is so good for me is because my sun and Jupiter intersect fairly close to where I live now. So I am in a power zone plus I have very good luck in general. On an astromap, Jupiter represents a pleasant and easy life, encourages a sense of being relaxed and optimistic about life. The sun represents integration, wholeness and self-realization. Those two positive indicators make Texas in general a good place for me to live, raise a family and have a generally good life.

Power Spot

I have yet to receive anything from my body as to where my power spot might be. I discussed Mt. Shasta with Eric – how I was super relaxed and slept better than I have in a long while. He said it may be one of my power spots. Unfortunately, I have no desire to relocate there, even though it is located close enough to the lines of healing and career success for me.

My draw now is to an area I have already been in several times. It is located only 20 minutes north of where I am now and I lived there for a year while in college. If my career pans out (which I think it will) it would be a good location for me I think. Being where I am located now serves me well, I am sure 20 minutes north would as well.

However, I have been extremely drawn to northern Florida for a while now (over a year), as well as Tennessee. I have been to both so cannot say for certain that either would be a power spot, but then I have not paid attention to my body and her reaction to either location. While in Florida recently I experienced a very calm, comfortable feeling at the Tampa airport. Considering I had a very stressful trip, it was a surprise to me. While in Tennessee I was overwhelmed by the energies and felt very unbalanced for the first few days of my trip and then very spiritually expanded and open toward the end. I felt relaxed but did not sleep well. It was as if I received a jolt of super energy or entered another dimension. Whether this is a signal that it was a power spot, I don’t know, but I did feel very powerful while I was there. So, maybe it is one?

For the astrologers who read this blog, any input about my map is welcomed. 🙂

Astrological Reading 10.23.16

Here are the notes from my reading yesterday. I did not include another part because of its personal nature. However, it was helpful and gave further insight to my current life situation.

Numerology – Life Path Number 8

Path chosen to evolve your spirit. Avenue through which to advance your soul’s potential. Will encounter others in life which demand the very best out of me, starting with my father. This was accurate. Eights are born old and get younger as they get older. Old souls in a child’s body and not comfortable with it. Want to get on with mission right away. Connected to their own personal power. Word is your gold. If you can’t trust someone’s word then there is an issue. Has the ability to recognize the talents of others and place them in positions that favor this. Core intentions is to leave a legacy. Lead as a teacher or example. Respect is more important than love is – this is true in my working relationships.

2014 was my 1 year in the cycle, so huge shifts occurred. This is true. This is my 3 year, so am becoming conscious of the intentions set in 1st year. This year I find my voice. Frequency shifted in 2014 and am just now catching up to it, mentally. Connecting with new people and letting go of those which do not resonate. Marriage will reflect this. Relationship with husband will either have been strengthened or weakened. 2014 direction sets the stage for the entire 9 year cycle. Finding voice and communicating it this year. Sharing my story and being more open about who I am. Need to create an identity that is unique to me.

Need to find my power place, the place where my physical body feels comfortable and rooted. If you don’t feel comfortable where you are then you’re not in your power spot. Going into 4 year – the Mother Power year. Needing to anchor and fully incarnate, to bring all of Self home to this environment. Until I do that I will feel wobbly and disconnected.

Natal Chart

Aquarius rising, Sun in Leo, moon conjunct Neptune at highest point of chart. Bottom half of chart is Earth, top is sky. 4th house area is my foundation/roots. Also suggests previous incarnation stuff brought into this incarnation. Bottom of the chart is very closely conjunct the Pleiades. Chart suggests that I came in from another world. Jupiter is very closely conjunct the Pleiades. Suggestive of me coming in via the Pleiadian frequency. Confirms my experience/memories. Pleiadian society is very Utopian and so my mission here is to bring that frequency to Earth. Moon-Neptune conjunction in Sag suggests a connection to Higher Angelic realms, the realms in which higher worlds are created into Being. In the Pleiades these higher realms actually manifested in the physical to create beauty and ascendency of the personal creative self. I came from a very Utopian world making it a big shock when I arrived on Earth. The trauma embedded in Earth was very difficult for me to handle. As a child I would have had a difficult time adjusting. This disharmony in the human experience is a shock to me because the Pleiades is very much in line with the higher realms and lives in harmony with their physical planets. I’m like a time traveler to set a wave in motion that has already been dreamed into creation. Often a sense with me that the other shoe is about to drop.

A particularly powerful point in my chart was in the mid-80s. I would have experienced a spiritual awakening during this time. I don’t recall this, but I was only 10 years old in 86′ when these changes came about. He says Kundalini first awakened then. Theme would be to follow Self rather than to follow what others wanted of me. I would have felt a different kind of power than I was use to. Sun and moon both conjunct outer planets. This creates a feeling of being overshadowed by a greater archetype which can eclipse my individual right to pursue my own goals. Particularly with Saturn I can feel that my responsibilities outweigh my right to achieve my own personal well-being, creative self and happiness. With the moon conjunct Neptune, there are always those at a greater need than myself. It would cause me to feel that I need to be there in a compassionate way to serve selflessly rather than realizing my own emotional independence and well-being. It is easy for archetypes that are carried like that to overshadow the self. Challenge for me to disengage myself from my greater mission to serve in order to address my own personal, individual, creative development. The more I have the courage to put my own well-being at the same level as the well-being of others, the more balance will be achieved and then I won’t be defined by the greater mission. I will be defined as a human being who is a living example of those archetypes. Ear ringing here as confirmation.

Saturn this year has made for an excellent opportunity for me to bring forth the Higher Realms into this physical world in a tangible way. Also a personal mastery of the higher frequencies and manifesting those dimensions here in the physical without being drawn OOB. Anchoring those higher frequencies and becoming more able to hold those frequencies. This year is about following my joy, meeting new people and having new experiences. Follow my joy. Find the lightness of my being. Learn how to enjoy my experience. Everything doesn’t have to add to a particular goal, some things are just to be enjoyed. Communicate, talk, share. Public speaking very good right now. Share as a living experience rather than just on my blog. Spread my wings and fly.


Pluto in Libra. Wherever Pluto is we face our petty tyrant. Demands that we take our power back. In Libra I tend to marry those who I have had issue with in past incarnations. Who may have been my enemy or contrary. Through compassion we bond to incite healing together of these past issues. I need a partner who really knows himself and stands in his own power. I push my partner to see how deeply his resolve to love is. To see if they are movable or will compromise their love. You can’t really know what a person is made of unless you push them really hard. This I do, do. lol I am looking to completely lose all boundaries and have an alchemical union with my partner. I need to feel safe enough to let go. This is why I push, to test them to see if I can trust them and feel safe enough to let go and merge with them fully. In previous incarnations I may have not felt I have met someone who had matched my power. Since I do not have past life memories of either of my husbands, it is hard to say if this is true or not but likely is. Since I have not felt my power has been matched by my partners in others lifetimes, it left me with the secondary choice of recognizing my own personal power. Queen in support of King without fully engaging the King. I have the opportunity to really transform myself and my partner now in this lifetime. I’ve been going through the cycles of initiation as a schooling to understand the inner workings of the human experience in relationships so that I can achieve my goal of alchemical union with a partner. I have reached a point, as of 2014, where I know enough about what not to do so that I can achieve this goal.


1st house since 2003 spiritual awakening. The particular agreement I had from that time is now becoming fully conscious. In a way there is no turning back in regards to the greater mission I have chosen to accomplish, becoming an angelic presence here on planet Earth (guide told me “turning point” in January of this year). This turning point would have been going on all year. It’s as if I entered a saintly period of my life. People will be more drawn to me. Learning how to physically handle those higher frequencies. This is why I need to find a power spot to really anchor to otherwise I will feel disconnected. I need to be stable for the next stage of the journey.

My primary focus now is to talk to my body and get into communication with her, asking her where she wants to be. Ask her to show me where her/my power spot is. I need to get rooted and feel safe to be the Mother Power and make my nest. Locate my true power spot and be able to incarnate my full potential.

Dream: Coward

I had an eye-opening reading with Eric Starwalker (thanks Eric!) last night that I am still processing. I recorded it and plan on transcribing it in full today. I will share with you those parts that I feel are not too personal after I have had the chance to transcribe and digest all the information I was given. Overall, what I was told was good and there was tons of confirmation and validation of what my own guidance has been telling me. There was also some information I believe was meant to be passed on directly via Eric because I have been up until now unable to receive it from my guidance. I am extremely grateful to my friend Sophia for setting up the reading for me. Had she not encouraged me, it was likely I never would have gone through with it. There was information I did not want to hear so I was balking at the idea. It is interesting how Spirit takes care of these things, isn’t it?

Something energetically shifted for me last night. Unfortunately it has left me with a horrible sore throat which manifested before the reading and has not let up. I also did not sleep well, waking up at 2am, throat burning, from a very unsettling dream.

Dream: Coward

I was walking through what appeared to be a college campus. It was very clean, almost pristine, with white sidewalks and manicured gardens. My purpose was to plant a bomb and leave the scene before anyone saw me. The bomb appeared to be a sheet of paper that was folded over on itself. It would detonate slowly, spreading a toxic acid into the air which would smother those it came in contact with.

I remember running and hiding, trying not to be seen. I felt pursued but don’t recall anyone actually following me. I finally deposited the bomb into a trashcan and ran away.

At this point in the dream I saw the repercussions of my actions. I saw the people running and knew the bomb was slow and suffocating to those it made contact with. It was not quick by any means. This delay and torture was very obvious and seemed to be the main focus of my attention.

Then I was then in a room with a child who was mine but who I did not recognize. I was looking down at my left forearm which had a reddish burn on it that was spreading. The child also had it. There was discussion here. I had gotten the burns from the bomb which I held onto for too long and so the acid had burned my skin. I was trying to determine what to do next. I knew I would be caught and likely go to prison so my first thought was to just kill myself. Then I thought I would just go to prison and didn’t care if I did. It was at this point I remember thinking,”Wait a minute. This isn’t real. This is a dream. There is no bomb.”

A flood of knowingness came to me then. I knew the dream was about my life and how I have chosen a path that will slowly destroy my current life and in the end would also injure me in some way. My choices are drawing out the inevitable. This is when I heard very loudly, “Coward. Coward. Coward.”

The symbolism indicates my knowingness is accurate. The college campus represents a lesson I am learning. Running away from a pursuer is not facing or confronting my fears. Hiding indicates I am avoiding taking responsibility for my actions or life. The trashcan is unwanted baggage or rejection of an idea or emotion.  The bomb symbolizes a potentially explosive situation. The acid is something or someone that is slowly eating away at me. My injured arm symbolizes my inability to help myself or a feeling of helplessness in reaching out to others. The fact that it is my left arm means these feelings are connected to my feminine, nurturing side.

I was able to return to sleep but it was fitful and I am tired this morning. I don’t feel upset by the dream necessarily but my guidance has been close and asking me, “What will you do?” As if my mind should have been changed in the night by what transpired. I suspect the information given in my reading fueled this dream.



I know, funny title. I actually saw it on a billboard last night when I was driving home from visiting my sister’s house. The 11.13 was a date of some spiritual meeting, a church event of some sort. I didn’t pay much attention to the entire billboard because my eyes were drawn to the 11, 13 and the word “Spirit”, so that’s all I paid attention to. I took note of it and zoned back out into my own thoughts and musings for the rest of the trip home.

Fast forward to this morning. Waking up, I was in a sour mood. Not sure why. I can’t recall my dreams really but I felt really low upon waking. As I fought to return to sleep (wasn’t happening) I saw very clearly the billboard from the night before. I knew I needed to take note of it. As soon as I recognized this, the number 33 popped into my mind’s eye painted in glowing, green.

The number 11 is my near constant companion these days along with 111 and 1111, so I’m not surprised it is showing up again.  The number 11 itself is a message to Remember who we are – our purpose/mission. To be guiding lights to others using our unique abilities, bringing illumination and awareness to others.

The number 13 is not so optimistic in my opinion. It’s like my guidance putting a giant post-it note on my forehead that says, “Rough times ahead, hold on!” It’s all about upheaval, karma and spiritual growth. Sound fun? Not to me. Yuck. Probably why I woke up grumpy. Not a message I wanted to get this morning.

The number 33 symbolizes guidance. Ask and you shall receive is it’s message. It also reminds us that anything is possible. It is a message from my guidance that all the changes I am going through are purposeful and worth it. Then it reminds me to be courageous and optimistic.

The word Spirit is likely a reminder that these messages came from my guidance. Or maybe to help me Remember that I am not this body or physical experience. That this is an illusion of my creating and to be mindful of my thoughts for they will manifest quite quickly.

Pleiadian Message

As I become more cognizant of last night’s adventures in dreamtime, I am reminded of a message I received. It actually just came through, as if something I wrote triggered it. I was told, “Remember your Pleiadian origins” and my “mission”. Of course, I don’t remember my mission but in receiving this message my focus instantly went to my heart and the word “Hope” came to mind. I felt surrounded on four sides by Beings who were loving and exuded a gentleness, unconditional love and understanding. It was as if they were cradling me in their combined energy.

There is memory here also of reception of information about my family/soul group. Whoever was speaking to me used the word “Pod” to describe these groups. I immediately thought of dolphins and how they travel in small family groups called pods. The recollection here is that my pod is composed of 5 members and that we have been traveling together for many, many lifetimes. Mostly I have memory in images of how these pods work and interact. Interestingly, it is very similar to dolphin pods.

The word “pair bond” came up also as well as a recognition that such bonds do not only exist in one reality but in all dimensional realities. So if one is pair bonded in one dimension, they are also in all others. There was complete understanding on my part of the purpose of such bonds at the time but I struggle now to make sense of it. All I know is that a pair bonding is purposeful, agreed upon by both parties and long-lasting. In terms of spiritual contracts/agreements, my understanding is that a pair bond supersedes all other contractual obligations.

There is a connection here also to pair bonds in science (molecular geometry), though it is hard for me to interpret. My draw to it suggests, however, that the scientific explanation is the more accurate explanation. Being that everything at the macro level also exists on the micro level, one would think what is seen in the atom is simply a smaller version of what is seen in Spirit.

Based upon these pieces of information and memory, I suspect I am receiving intense, specialized instruction during dreamtime. Hopefully eventually my understanding will improve, though it may be impossible at the human level.