I am slowly coming to the realization that I have indeed shifted out of the wounded healer space (Chiron) I have been occupying for some time. Whether that means, astrologically, Chiron has shifted positions, probably but IDK.
It was just recently that I was reminded that I have Chiron at 1° Taurus. Scrolling through old posts I stumbled upon it just the other day. Then I researched it some more and found this article on it. And LOL – It was as if the article was describing me!
People with Chiron in Taurus in their birth chart truly own their pain. They own it so much that they can appear to be masochists. They get comfortable with their pain. Here you have a whole batch of people who stay in painful situations longer than they should.
It’s not that Chiron in Taurus people enjoy the pain, but rather that they deal with it slowly. To begin with, the blows that they endured were slow and long-lasting. Chiron in Taurus people sense pain on an earthly plane. It’s physically, materialistically real to them. This is not something that can be easily blown off. It takes time to work through it.
Chiron in Taurus might brood or wallow in pain before finally deciding to make the best of it. Yet, they do finally make something beautiful and valuable come from their suffering. This ultimately serves to inspire others.
That last part is especially true for me – brooding and wallowing in pain. Ha! And there have been times that I found myself truly attracted to the darkness I experienced.
But it isn’t just wallowing in the pain, it is feeling genuinely overwhelmed by it, as if it completely takes over. When in emotional pain (not so much physical) I cannot see past it until I completely understand it and feel through it.
That is what I was doing all of 2017! It was like walking around with an arrow in my heart the entire year. 😦
Like my guidance told me during this painful time, “What doesn’t kill you makes your stronger.” Apparently for Chiron in Taurus this saying is our motto! hahaha
So I’m now in the stage of making the lessons of 2017 valuable in some way. Turning lemons into lemonade.
Something pretty awesome is going on with me right now but I am not clear on exactly what that something is. I just feel it and the dreams and messages I am receiving support this conclusion.
Dream: Free Bird
This dream was a long one. In it I had a tiny bird (dreams, aspirations, goals), like a sparrow, that I was taking care of and protecting. I remember letting it out of its cage (feeling restrained or confined) a few times and then putting it back in to keep it safe. However, at one point, the cage was damaged and I could not close it properly. I had to decided what to do and so I opted to trust that my bird friend would stay close to me and not fly away where it could be hurt or eaten.
I took the tiny bird into a barn (feelings kept in subconscious) and let it fly free inside. I made sure to cover all the crevices so that it couldn’t escape. At first it would come back to me, staying close. Eventually, though, it flew farther and farther away, up into the highest parts of the barn ceiling.
While inside the barn I noticed some white feathers on the ground. It appeared to be the remains of a chicken (cowardliness). Someone told me that the chickens roosted in the barn but that sometimes critters got in and snatched one for a tasty meal. This chicken had surely met such a fate. I remember thinking the owners should have taken care of their chickens better.
At this time the bird managed to get out through a crack in the barn. I was really worried because a big storm was coming. I could hear the high winds. At some point I realized the bird would be okay and would likely find shelter. So, I let go of my fear and trusted.
Then the scene shifted to me watching the tiny bird fly up high into the sky toward larger birds, birds that might eat him. He flew with such ease and was able to maneuver around them and avoid being hurt. Then he flew away into the sky. Free.
After that it was like I was the bird, flying along a highway toward an unknown destination. To my right I could see the storm (struggle, shock, loss) in the distance. It was set apart by dark clouds and a stream of neon blue rain that branched out like lightening as it fell to the ground. Ahead of me, though, was nothing but clearing skies.
I was with a woman in this dream and we were at this very large, white house (one’s soul, self). It was empty except for us but there had been a recent gathering. I was helping the woman pick up all the chairs (need to rest) from the gathering. We talked and worked throughout the first part of the dream but I can’t recall our conversation.
At one point there was an emergency. This emergency involved three woman. Two had babies (growth and new beginnings) and one did not. One of the two with babies had a baby that was in crisis and needed to be saved. I devoted my time to saving this baby and its mother. I remember having to feed the babies milk (compassion, love, nurturing). The one in crisis needed a special dropper that appeared as tiny as a needle but it would not take the milk. The other baby gulped its milk eagerly. I remember worrying about the poorly baby and taking extra special care of it. Eventually it began to eat and soon it was no longer in danger of dying.
The babies survival directly affected their mother’s survival. Thus, if the baby died, so did the mother.
Dream: Message from God
In this dream I found myself sitting in my mom’s living room with everyone in my family. We were seated like we have done hundreds of times during the holidays.
There appeared before me a vision of a handwritten letter. It was a short message so I began to read it silently to myself. I stopped quickly because I saw who the message was from. It read, “Hi Dayna. My name is God(3).”
I had seen the message before so I knew what it said. It basically was an email from a man who had been following my blog. He recognized me – well my energy – and our connection and so wrote to me about it. He wanted to meet me because he loved me.
In reading and recognizing the letter/man I exclaimed, “I know this man!” Then I explained to my family who he was. They thought me crazy and told me that I should not meet the man, that he could be a creep and mean me harm. I laughed and said he would never do that.
In my mind I saw the man and he looked Indian and familiar. Somehow I recognized him, too.
Then I began to unpack a box that was a gift he had sent to me. Inside the box were beautiful clothes (new perception of self) for me. The first I pulled out was a light gray dress. It was made of a sweater type material but hung like silk. Then I pulled out a large sweater and realized it was his sweater (protection, warmth). I showed it to my family saying, “Oh, this must be his clothing! It feels like wool (warmth).” The feeling from them was disapproval but I continued to unpack my box of gifts.
There was a complete outfit for a man and a woman contained in the box. All of them were of the same material and color. They were brand new with tags on them. The dress had a tiny tag with a green 3 written on it. I remember thinking the clothing was very inexpensive for how nice it was.
The final piece of clothing was a white skirt (femininity). What is interesting is the clothes first appeared light gray but as the dream progressed it turned white like this skirt. When I held it up I remember a male voice saying, “This is to be worn with boots (power).” I could see in my mind how it would look and was pleased.
Again I saw the man who sent the presents and felt that I was suppose to be with him. In fact, I saw myself as Indian, too, and we had a small child together. I was delighted but my family still disapproved.
Message in Music
When I woke from this dream I could still hear the man speaking to me. I could still see how he looked and it reminded me of an OBE from long ago where I was to meet my future husband. The other dreams of the night also came to mind, especially the bird dream. I know that it has to do with overcoming my fears and finding my freedom. It is a very positive dream.
There was more discussion between myself and this man/guide but I cannot recall it all now. There is memory of discussing him and I as One and of my becoming Whole finally and the changes it would mean for me. I am still not clear on it all, though. The messages came via the in-between similar to other messages I’ve received but they are not meant to be remembered at this time I guess, otherwise I would recall them.
What I do remember is a song going through my head. This one:
Very fitting song message, don’t you think? 🙂