I apologize for the silence. I want to write, I really do, but I can’t do it publicly right now. So, I write with pen and paper to document my experiences for the time being.
To be honest, I don’t know where I am going right now. It is a blank. The upheaval continues. The
exploration forced submersion into deeper layers of Self continues. Who I will be when I come out the other side is unknown. How long that will take? Also unknown.
In my last post I wrote of a dream in which I took a u-turn and then found that I may have turned around too soon. I had another u-turn dream last night. In this one I was also on a busy highway but following a school bus going much slower than the rest of traffic. I made a slow u-turn along with the school bus.
Since I have been purposefully trying to forget my dreams lately, I almost lost this brief dream recollection. It is funny how intention works with dream recall for me. Just thinking, “I don’t want to remember my dreams. I don’t care anymore.” works wonders. I have had nights of dreamless sleep because of it. A sweet escape into the abyss of no-memory. Yet this morning when I woke up the bliss of no-memory was invaded by an rush of dream memory. It was not pleasant. The u-turn dream said to me, “Pay attention to this one. Don’t ignore this.”
So I looked it up. What could a u-turn possibly mean that is so important?
U-turn: You are altering the course of your life. You are changing directions; taking a completely different path. It can also mean a wrong decision or choice has been made.
The school bus confirms the u-turn symbolism.
School bus: You are about to venture on an important life journey needed for your own personal growth.
I will just leave it at that.