I just wanted you all to know where I’m at as it likely will keep me away from blogging for a little bit.
Whatever has happened to me has me completely out of whack. I am going to share some of what I wrote down at midnight last night when I couldn’t sleep because using my mind right now shifts me into a place I cannot function from.
11:54pm 2/19/2016
I can’t sleep. I am conscious of a feeling. It is causing me to want to run away from everything; to just up and go. But I don’t know where to. I feel frantic. What am I suppose to do? How do I escape this feeling? I am told to listen; to look at what is in my heart, but what I find confuses me. It says, “LIVE, be LOVE, embrace LOVE. You are ALIVE. BE ALIVE.” But what does that mean? I have no idea how to LIVE. Yeah. Pathetic. My heart is telling me to break away – to not be afraid of myself, of what I am feeling. I can’t think with this!
My heart just resonates with this connection, this Divine feeling of utter completeness. It is so full and deep and beautiful. But when I look at my life it is none of these things! My life, this life I am living, feels unnatural to me. I don’t feel like I belong in it. WTF? I feel on the brink of something big but I just can’t get myself to take that step forward. If feels so familiar. Even now I am just avoiding, circling the unavoidable. It is so terrifying to even look. This is where I contact the intense desire to RUN. But there is nowhere to run to. The only true escape (if any) is death. Not an option.
All I know and feel right now, all.the.time, is that which I contacted in my dream. This shifted my very core. There is no going back. There is only FORWARD.
This is only a small piece of what I wrote down. I had to get it out somehow because it was keeping me from sleeping and I was (still am) so very exhausted.
My entire guidance/Team is different; my focal point obliterated.
Living Life in Between 
It was an interesting night for me too. Matt Kahn says to allow yourself to feel rested, even if the consciousness didn’t go into deep sleep. Or something like late. Just speak to yourself and tell yourself that when you are sleeping but your consciousness is awake, you are still getting sleep. You will feel rested.
When you enter such a state it is good to repeat a positive mantra like, “May you be Blessed,” or “I Love You.” Tell yourself you don’t care if you repeat this until infinity, if that is the will of the Divine. Do not focus on the hour, or not being able to sleep the same way. Just repeat, “May you be Blessed.” Blessing the world, and if you happen to fall asleep, you might just find yourself repeating it in your dreams.
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Hi Dayna,
I am with peacenowflower on this. If you are able, tune into some Matt Kahn YouTube videos . His transmissions and voice will calm you and bring you love. I will also send you healing light
❤ Linda
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I don’t know why but I really don’t enjoy Matt Kahn. He kinda creeps me out.
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glad to hear back from you. I do understand your Matt Kahn reaction. I had to move past it because the material he channels is sheer brilliance. And I have been at this rodeo a time or two, so I have heard and read many channels, teachers, healers, etc.
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Hi Dayna, just a suggestion: take a look at Rick Archer’s interview [ Buddha at the Gas Pump ] of Pamela Wilson, you might find this helpful. Blessings, Patrick.
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Thanks, Patrick. I will when I get my bearings. xx
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Dayna – I’ve been in a place/state similar to this some time ago. Great change did happen in small and big ways. One moment at a time, breathe and we all love you! Thank you for sharing and you know you will get through this. (Side note: Why is the word Isis in crisis?? Hmm. Wouldn’t hurt to ask for her help, too.)
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Thank you, Molly.
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💗💖💜🌹❣
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Don’t worry, I’ve had a complete change of team this week too, and it was very hard to get my bearings, felt like a drunk with everything metaphorically tilted at a crazy angle! ‘When in doubt, do nowt’. All you have to do is keep breathing. You don’t have to feel comfortable, or understand what’s going on. Just keep breathing through it!
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Thank you, Teleile. That is what I have been doing. That and listening to whatever music pops into my head. Today it was Queen’s Bohemian Rhapsody. lolol “Nothing really matters”.
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DANG, now you’ve got that stuck in my head, for the next 3 days!! 😀
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Hi, Dana
Its me Sophia, I get these same experiences. They will come and they will go, but they WILL COME BACK.
I am now able to prepare myself better, such as I just know when its creeping up to a FULL MOON, my energies do the I AM HOME SICK want to be back there ….etc…etc…
I cope by going into the cocooning stage.
Do not allow yourself to be a filter from the Ultimate Light Source straight to humanity….
YOU MUST REPEAT MUST NOT FORGET TO GIVE YOURSELF
LOVE LIGHT TOO..YOU MUST…Be With yourself
What you are experiencing and hearing is exactly same as myself,
Having a support system such as you have right now is so very
Important…..
I am here for you
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Thank you so much Sophia. I am so looking forward to meeting you in May! Based upon what is happening to me, I suspect I will be much different than I am today – more alive I suppose. 🙂
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