The Volunteers

I’ve been reading The Convoluted Universe Book 3 for a while now. I keep bookmarking pages of this book because it resonates with me so much.

Chapter 13: The Volunteers

In this chapter Dolores presents many examples of first timers to Earth and the waves of volunteers who came to Earth to help raise the vibration.

In one section of this chapter she works with a man named James who describes demolecularization as his means of travel.

Then the feeling of movement, and a shocking revelation. “Forward, forward – elsewhere, very, very fast. When it moved, when it …. jumped? It made me feel ….. split apart, like atoms….Like demolecularization, but not in a bad way; just necessary. It is necessary in order to travel. You cannot travel in the physical body. It’s too fast. The body would break. So they demolecularize me till they can put me back together later. It’s contained within the light, within the dome area. Maybe the light holds it or keeps it from going everywhere”.

When I read this I knew this is what had happened to me. I’ve had many incidences where I felt this way. The first time it happened I came back from wherever I had been completely freaked out, shaking and begging for help. I ended up going downstairs and just hugging my husband. It happened several times after that but with less intensity, almost like I started to get use to whatever it was that was happening to me.

When I would come back together from being split apart I would remember everything initially – like I had all the knowledge of the universe. Then, the more solid I became, the less I remembered. It felt like the knowledge was siphoned off. I think this is what terrified me the most.

I know that I, like James, had been traveling. Not only that, but I remember the domed area he talks about, too! I wonder what form I am changing into? I have no memory of what I look like when I go to this area. The next time I go I have to look at myself.

James then talks about what he is doing when he reaches this domed area. He is training. He is learning about Earth through simulations and “life games” which ultimately are the putting on of lives to help him better adapt to life on Earth.

This also feel accurate for me. Sometimes I think my dreams are conscious memories of these life scenarios.

 

Purpose: To Help

Over and over the people who Dolores talks to in her book explain that they are on Earth “to help”. They often describe an overwhelming desire to assist, a “pull” toward Earth or a “calling”, and a nervousness about descending into a body.

I remembered what I was doing prior to coming into this body. I remember preparing to descend into the body. I was nervous and spent quite a bit of time reviewing this life before descending. I felt an intense pull towards Earth as I “fell” down towards it. I was also afraid. The last thing I remember was hearing that my older sister had been born and it was time for me to go.

The 3 Waves of Volunteers

According to Dolores Cannon, there are three waves of volunteers:

First Wave– These people would be in their 40s and early 50s now, finally adjusting to life after going through turbulent early years of feeling they didn’t belong here. A number tried to commit suicide or were treated for depression.

2nd Wave– Presently in their 20s and 30s, these folk had an easier time, and have been called “channels, generators, and antennas,” and project positive energy. Many have chosen not to have children, as this creates karma, and they don’t want to have to return to Earth after this life.

3rd Wave– The New Children are coming into the world with altered DNA, so they can function in a different reality (vibrations are pushing Earth into a new dimension).

I know I am a volunteer, I just don’t know which wave I am. I seem to fit the description of the 1st wave completely but I am not that old. I also fit part of the description of the second wave some, too. Maybe I am a mix of both? I don’t guess it really matters, though.

When I question my Companion, I am reminded that this is not my first attempt to help. My last attempt ended prematurely. This was the life when I died in 1971, the same year my older sister was born. I would have been born in the 1960’s, 1964 I think because I was about 6-7 years old when I died in that life. I was told that my life was suppose to continue but someone I was meant to be with/work with, either opted out or something was changed last minute. In other words, my path and theirs were linked and so when their course changed, so did mine. Unfortunately for me, it was quite upsetting as I was murdered. Ouch!

Karma

I feel like I have karma I am working through, but since reading Dolores’ book, I keep feeling that I am missing something.

Last night when I went to bed I had entered into another mini-panic. What was funny is my mind was going a hundred miles an hour with panic-like thoughts but I didn’t actually feel panic. While in this weird state I felt often a sudden pull into my heart and all would go quiet. On a couple of other times I felt something move seemingly into me from the left. When this happened I would also calm down and the mind would shut off. This was the strangest feeling I have had since the demolecularization feeling. It was like a bubble of energy that had substance to it, almost like a pressure, moved into my head from the left. And with it came a complete disconnection with this life, but only momentarily. This disconnection is why my mind would shut off. It was like I was unplugged from this life, reset or maybe short circuited.

After the last “bubble” hit me, I was aware suddenly that I reflect karma for the people I meet. This means that whatever karma the person needs to work through they work through with me. It’s like I project to them what they need of me to work through whatever it is they need to work through.

In remembering this I knew it was true. My relationship with my ex is certainly one of these. I knew when I married him I was marrying him to help him. I knew it would be temporary. And when I wanted to leave I couldn’t. It was like I was stuck and only when he was ready was I allowed out.

I don’t know if there is a name for people like me, but I can tell you the job sucks. I won’t do it again. I think I got conned into it.

Now does this mean I carry no karma? I don’t know. I don’t think so, but I am still trying to figure it all out. Dolores discusses imprinting of lives quite a bit. She explains there is no way to differentiate between imprinted ones and real ones. Every time I read about imprinted lives I think I have these. But I can’t tell. I would really love to be one of those who is immune to karma but I know I’m not. I have two more lives after this one after all, to sort through what I have left.

 

 

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8 thoughts on “The Volunteers

  1. talynia says:

    This reminds me so much of myself. I also so feel like this that I get into peoples lives only to bring them to go through their own karma or shortcomings. My husband is a major proof for that. He has a lot to work through, however with my ego mind I feel he won’t get it, maybe too late at his death bed. I am not sure, he still is for a claimed to be spiritual and awake person, still too engaged with the game of making it big time and become rich, something that I just do not care about. And yet I know I feel terrible with him, I am not able to leave for odd reasons, while I could just cut cord with my ex boyfriends, maybe for them it worked faster in 2-3 months each time I had another boyfriend, suddenly I would feel a pull and felt I needed to get out, so I did. But this time it’s almost impossible for odd reasons…

    I also do know the feeling that you describe, I used to have this feeling of an energy bubble coming in from the right side of my head, sometimes bringing a bang sound with it or a bright light flash! I had them a lot in August 2014! Nowadays less for some reason 😦
    But I feel every now and then a weird pulling sensation in my stomach, it feeling like a baby is pushing or so. Very odd sensation. And also balls of energy traveling through my entire abdomen and then go right into the rib cage where I feel ticklish and always jump when this happens lol… According to your list I must be a 2. wave volunteer. However I also feel some of the things from the 1st wave. I am just 29 now so I am not sure.

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    • Dayna says:

      It’s likely that there are no definite boundaries for the waves of volunteers. I identify most with the first because it seems to me that I went through quite a tough time up until my thirties. Suicide was on my mind most of my twenties and I was diagnosed with dysthymia, which means always depressed. Yay for me! This was during my Dark Night so I am not surprised.

      The karma job is weird but I read about it in the book so I know the Volunteers do this – they help people clear their karma. How they do it without creating their own, IDK. I’m sure since I have children that I chose the karmic route.

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  2. I am 30, but I think I am in the First Wave. Just caught the end of the First Wave. (Those who ascended by Sept 28th this year. The Supermoon Blood Moon night. Though some have the cut off being earlier in the same year. So I made it at the very end.) I still might bounce back and forth between the frequencies.

    I had gotten sick with an eye infection, and had to lay around with my eyes closed for quite a few days. I had been addicted to online games, and felt the guilt of not supporting my online team. Yet, at the same time I felt liberated to have a reason to not constantly be playing. One night, I dreamed of a Mandala of Light that had a dual meaning. 1) Your illness has passed. 2) You have ascended. I was freed from the addiction to games, and suddenly had a lot more time one my hands.

    As a volunteer, I feel I came here quite a while ago. Living lives as Shamans, and burned Witches. Actually it was my Mother who was burned as a Witch, and my village rejected me. I died that winter in the cold. Anyway, I am an old Soul to the Earth and a volunteer. I think volunteers have been here longer then they think. Only they are closest to the memory of before in this lifetime so have troubles.

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  3. Goobie says:

    By dowsing I can give you some info. You are first wave. You have about 10-15 percent of karma to work through (of what you started this life with and collected in this life). Asking Mother Mary to transmute this can lighten your load. This is her gift right now.
    What does 70 mean to you???
    Peacenowflower- I get you are more of a 2nd wave. But does it all matter anyway? We are in the same boat!

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    • Dayna says:

      Thanks Goobie. 🙂

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    • kittyasmith says:

      I get the same information you do, Goobie. Further, I do get that I a first wave, and that one of my two sisters that commit suicide was also. The other was not a volunteer. This is very interesting new information for me.

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    • Hello Goobie,
      It was Matt Kahn who introduced me to the concept of Waves. I have some similarities in the age of the Second Wave in that I never wanted to have children. I still have none. However, I have been with the First Wave right beside them. I actually had a spiritual awakening that led to me being medicated 10 years ago, and quite a long dark night of the Soul. I was considered Bipolar, then Schizoaffective. I think I was about 19 when I was diagnosed Bipolar Type I with Psychosis. It, however, was hugely linked to a thyroid problem that wasn’t discovered for 8 years.

      A lot of Channelers are saying that the First Wave is now getting done with their Dark Nights, while the Second Wave is just starting to enter into theirs. I guess I jumped on the First Wave boat because my life has been improving instead of getting worse. Ever since my thyroid problem was discovered, it is a different world.

      So I very much don’t want to be in the Second Wave, as I feel I have dealt with enough already. I don’t want to be just getting started. I might seem young, but I don’t think age really is the true indicator of which Wave you are in.

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