Tough Day

I don’t have time to go into much detail and I’m not sure I could anyway, but today has been probably the toughest day for me ever. I mean it.

I don’t call friends for help. I did twice today. Twice. It helped some, but didn’t really give me any answers. I don’t know what the <expletive> is going on but it is NOT funny.

When the intensity was at its peak I was begging and pleading with my Companion to take it away. He told me to focus on my heart. Yeah, well that made it more intense since it was coming from my heart to begin with.

I did focus there, though, since I couldn’t really do anything else. And the answer I got was, “You need this to Remember”. Okay. Thanks.

My day didn’t start out like this. My heart center has been non-stop with energy for about three days now, but nothing unbearable. I could easily forget about it by keeping busy, which I did all morning. But around 2:30pm, when I was preparing something in the kitchen, it hit full force. It nearly knocked me out of my chair.

I won’t call it a bolt of lightening but it is similar in intensity. I can’t breathe, I can’t think, I can’t really do anything about it. I finished what I was doing and went outside to sit in the sun. The whole time I am asking my Companion to make it stop, to take it away, to fix it, or whatever. Can’t really remember now.Β It lasted over an hour. That’s when I caved and called out to my friends. Thankfully both were there.

I understand that we are being reUnited with members of our soul group now. I understand that I will be asked to do things that are outside my comfort zone. I get it. But this feels like I am being “summoned”.

I would much rather have my Companion yell “Get out now” like he did the first time.

Please pray for me. Honestly, I don’t know what else to say except that I need help getting through whatever it is that is happening to me. I don’t think healing would help, so hold back on that. I fear it would make the intensity worse.

 

 

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20 thoughts on “Tough Day

  1. litebeing says:

    I share my compassion and prayers with you. Funny that you mention the heart, mine has been very reactive with heartburn and some palpitations. Like my heart isn’t already opened?

    All I can offer is empathy. We are on this planet together as one.

    peace, Linda

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  2. SKYLAR A says:

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  3. talynia says:

    Oh my goodness I a so sorry you go through this Dayna! My heart has also been acting weird lately. I can sit here in total silence doing nothing that would promote a rapid beat, but then out of a sudden it feels like my heart literally beats one very strong time. like really so strong it feels as if my whole upper body gets sucked into this beat. It always happens like once or twice and then it’s completely gone.Also last night as I did my chakra stimulation exercises the heart felt extremely strong, pressure, push/pull, no idea really how to describe it.

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  4. truthcodex says:

    My thoughts of well-being and good intentions are yours. Take care of yourself over there. You’re not alone!

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  5. motherofeden says:

    Life in the physical is so f@$#ing hard as it is without all the extra-dimensional stuff too.. I haven’t gone through any of this, but when I was trained as a birth doula I learned that sometimes all you have is your breath… so during the tumult of any intense challenge, sometimes all you can do is breathe. It is literally all you have. Focus on each moment of the breath if you can, the in and the out, where does it begin and where does it end? Each breath brings you closer to the inevitable moment of relief. You know it is coming. You will not be stuck here. You will acclimate. You always do. Let the breath take you there.

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  6. Angela says:

    Some traditional yoga poses and breath work may even it out and take you deeper. Trust.

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  7. Sometimes all we can do is ‘suffer gracefully’ as best we can!

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  8. Durinda says:

    You are an incredibly strong person, so I know you will make it through this rough patch. But I send so much Love to you, you are not alone.

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  9. teleile says:

    If it’s any comfort, Denise le Fay has been struggling too, and could barely make it to the grocery store because of the intense heart energies.
    Link here –

    https://highheartlife.wordpress.com/

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  10. herongrace says:

    I am glad you are feeling better now. I am wondering although I don’t know how cold it is where you are, but if you scoop out a small hole in the earth and visualize the energy going down your legs and out your feet and into the earth. Ask Gaia if she will take this energy from you. All the best. I have had some experience in the past with having periods of my body reacting to geomantic? pressures and know they are quite stressful and unpleasant similar to what you are experiencing.

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  11. throughtruth says:

    I am sharing my post on stabilizing Kundalini Energy with you as these techniques helped me tremendously. Here’s my post: https://serpentguide.wordpress.com/stabilizing-kundalini-energy/
    Good luck! Sending peace and love during your difficult time!

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