Aldyn: Old Friend

I finally got good sleep last night but still awoke at 5am, much earlier than I would like.

Dream: Meeting an Old Friend

The dream I awoke from was of me reuniting with an old friend. In the dream I had been in a game show that resembled the Price is Right. In it, I saw Alex Trebek as two people. The first was connected to a very long, fat, golden snake that appeared to be filled with air like one of those lawn displays that fills up giant Santa Claus’ to make them appear larger than life. I don’t recall much about this part of the dream except the snake and knowing that the person who at once appeared like Alex and then a woman was a twin of this snake.

I then moved into a dark room that felt to be inside a house. I know I was in the astral at this time but I did not awaken while there. A man came in who was very tall and had dark hair. I don’t remember his face or features but I knew him and we talked. He had just returned from a journey and we were discussing his taking of a wife. I said to him with surprise, “You were married again?” He said, “Yes” and there was an a communication that passed between us that this marriage had been short lasting only a year, like the many others he had. I also knew he had fallen in love quickly and deeply each time he was married but then when actually married each relationship fell apart. I knew that the reason for this was that his expectations of his spouse were too high and unyielding. She could not be what he wanted and so every time the relationship would break and end in a loss for him.

I hugged him, my head barely resting upon his broad chest. I said to him as I looked up at him, “I forgot how tall you were”. He appeared to be at least 7 feet tall and I felt dwarfed in his presence.

We sat down together on a sofa and I lay my head on his shoulder. He wrapped his arms around me. I noticed that I wanted to be close to him, a feeling I do not have in my current lifetime with my current husband. The difference was striking but I accepted it. I felt at ease with him and happy to just be in his arms.

Then I became nervous. My husband came into the room and I did not want him to see me there with my friend. I covered myself in blankets to hide. They were removed and I was laying there alone, my friend nowhere to be seen.

Aldyn

I awoke then, still feeling the confusion of waking without my friend there. I heard then, “What if I made you a man? What would you do?”

This question confused me and the dream came back to me.

Then I heard very distinctly, “Aldyn” and I knew he lived 400,000 years ago. I wondered if man even had civilizations that far back and if he did which ones were around? I then wondered if in fact this man, this Aldyn, was me and felt it may be and that it was him/me that lived so long ago.

Interestingly, the name Aldyn is Old English for “old friend”.

I then thought of the question I was asked. I responded, “I would play with it (meaning the penis)” and laughed. I communicated that it would be the first thing I did because I had always wondered what it would be like. But then I felt I needed to be serious got and said, “I would focus on how the body felt and note the differences”. Then I remembered what being a man was like and knew the thought processes were very different from that of a woman. It felt different and it is hard to describe the difference as it is subtle. It has to do with the connections made in the brain and how the thoughts are processed and what areas they originate from.

Then we had a discussion about why I chose to be female this life and the struggles that come with choosing to be female. I saw the challenge of the imbalance that existed between the masculine and feminine; how women had lost their power. I saw the lessons in motherhood and I cringed. The patience needed, the compassion and understanding, the need to tune into one’s emotions and intuition – all these things I need to enhance within my own whole Self because for far too long it has been the masculine which I doted upon.

This is what I awoke to this morning. So much of me resists the lessons I am here to learn. I see now why my guide calls me ambivalent.

Visit with Mom: The Path is Clearer

My kids woke early and were restless. It was a beautiful day so I decided to all my mom and see if she would like us to visit. She was happy for a chance to see us all, so off we went.

On the 40 minute drive there I was feeling a shifty energy that came as soon as I relaxed. I also felt out of it, as if I would accidentally run into something or forget something. Thankfully none of that happened. The drive was mostly uneventful despite occasionally feeling I would go OOB and major third eye chakra activity.

When we reached my mom’s house the energy felt soothing and calm. My brother was there and we all just had a very nice visit talking of things that had happened or were soon to happen and just catching up. While talking with my mom about the visit, she mentioned how nice it was to have us come and I suggested we visit like this at least once a week now that I don’t have to go to a job. She liked the idea. I think we will meet next week to visit the aquarium and maybe do some other things together like go to the zoo. My middle son and my mom have a strong connection (I honestly think he is my dad reincarnated which would explain this strong bond). He just kept snuggling up to his Nana and staying close to her.

On the way home from our short visit I knew why the suggestion to visit more often felt right. I recognized that if I were to leave on a long journey to never return to visit those I loved that I would spend as much time with them as I could before I left. It made complete sense then to see my mom more often.

The Path is Clearer

While driving home I had again that strange feeling that I was going to go OOB while driving. I remember one stretch of road appeared like a stretch of road I use to drive frequently in Montana. For a short bit I could even see the mountains to my right and the large body of water to my left. This created a feeling of being in two places at once which then led to me feeling I would leave my body. Yet I was not afraid. I was calm and felt happy, like I had done so much more than I have given myself credit for. I also felt the huge difference between the me from that time in my life to the me now. I saw how back then I was adrift, lost in a sea of energy that was unlike my own. It was like I was floating in a scattered energy. I could see the particles scattered in many directions, like an explosion or starburst. I then saw myself being drawn to more and more people with similar energy to my own and the particles of energy condensed and became more organized and streamlined. I could see this dazzling array of energy, all the colors of it from green to purple to blue and yellow. My path followed the gold particles of energy and now all that remains is gold and white. My path is much more distinct now.

I felt like I had finally found the “somewhere I belong” that I wrote about in a song I wrote in 2001. It just amazes me how life works out.