City of Gold

I had a lot happen last night so this post will focus only upon the OBEs I had.

Wrapped in a Blanket

I had been dreaming and had an encounter that was sexual in nature that woke me up. When I awoke my body was abuzz with energy – vibrations on full force; head covered in energy; loud, high pitched ringing in the center of my head; third-eye, throat and second chakra buzzing pleasantly. I felt my guide near and so stated, “I want to astral”. While he was responding I rolled out of my body and off the side of the bed.

I immediately had full perceptions and was standing in the living area of my Mom’s house. A bit thrown off by this immediate trans-location, I took in my surroundings. It was light but not vividly bright and I could see the tile floor. In front of me was a medium-sized child wrapped in a green blanket. I did not recognize him but he came toward me and I ended up wrapped up with him. The speed of this occurrence surprised me and I went back into my body.

City of Gold

I awoke at 5am and my guide was close, talking to me. I will include what we discussed in another post, but I ended up going downstairs to get something to eat and then fell back to sleep. I again stated that I wanted to astral.

I became lucid within a dream and felt the vibrations signaling that I could exit. As soon as I intended, I was OOB.

For some reason this initial section of the OBE is blurry. At the time it was intensely vivid but now I can only grasps aspects of it. I know that I was inside a house that was similar to my Mom’s but wasn’t that house. I also recall that I stated out loud my intent which was, “I want to truly see myself”.

I recall mostly vivid colors – a golden yellow, orange, white swirls and other vivid colors. I also know I was flying and talking with my guide as I flew. I ended up outside at one point and saw the trees of my mother’s yard and the blue sky. I recall feeling very free and alive, as if I was the most powerful person in the world.

There was an instant when I began to feel my energy lag and my vision began to darken. I paused and stated to myself, “I need more energy” and then said, “More energy”. Before I was finished saying it I felt myself being pulled swiftly upward with such a velocity that my vision completely blacked out. At the same time I felt as if I were being pulled by my eyeballs and there was a sensations of them being peeled from the front to the back of my head. It was almost like someone had put hooks into my eyes and pulled; as if I were a fish being reeled in. Along with this weird feeling was the most massive amount of energy I think I have ever felt in astral. I cannot even describe it but at the time I thought that I was being taken to a different level or plane. I panicked at first but then let go, resolving to surrender to whatever was happening.

When the sensation of movement stopped, the energy settled down and my vision came back. I was standing in front of a mirror inside the house. There I saw myself looking back at myself as clear as day. My hair was a bit longer than it is now, maybe shoulder length, and my face had acne spots on it.

I smiled at myself and then said out loud, “Oh, so I am seeing myself! I get it”. I did not get disappointed even though I had meant something other than actually getting a visual glimpse of myself. I actually laughed at how literal requests are taken! I should have known!

I moved on from this point and flew out the window. I decided to state a different intent and said, “I want to see the past life that is most influencing me right now”. I actually reworded this a couple of times before settling on the final version.

mandalaWhen I was done stating my intent I heard voices of children and saw a young boy running below me. I quickly hid up under the tree canopy and watched as he and a group of boys rushed up underneath. Some had skateboards and at first I was afraid. I immediately told myself, “They are me” and calmed down, then went down to join them.

I talked to them for a bit, commenting on one boy’s skateboard. Then I invited them to come with me and we flew up into the air towards the road. One of the boys pointed to the sky and said, “That’s not good” and I looked and saw dark storm clouds in the distance. There was a shaft of energy shooting from the cloud straight into the ground. The energy was black mixed with other colors, especially white.

I told the boy, “Oh, that is a portal!” As I said it, the portal split off and became several small tornadoes. I had thought I would investigate but now thought different and so went the other way. The boys followed.

For a time I flew along with the boys and began to sing with all my heart, “I can see the light, oh-oh-oh”. The song was beautiful and I even heard voices accompanying me. Unfortunately, my vision began to falter despite singing. I was pulled upward very quickly once again and I just let it happen, dropping all resistance. My vision got dark but did not black out and I could sense the kids behind me. When my vision returned we were standing on a golden bridge that led into an entire city made of gold!

I went to explore the city and came upon a fountain made of gold. What was amazing about it is how detailed and intricate the design was. Below the surface of the clearest water I have ever seen was a golden, flowery mandala pattern. Fascinated, I went closer and attempted to put my foot into the water. When I did I felt an odd sensation and awoke in my body needing to swallow.

Factors Influencing Projection

Lucidity scale: 7

Intent stated?: Yes

Time to bed: 9pm

Time to wake: More times than I can count, last time was 5am

Meditation?: No

Physical Exercise?: None

Mood: normal

Body: None

Tiredness: Low

Number of wakings: 4+

Technique?: WBTB

Sleeping position: Back

Supplements: Multivitamin, Natural Calm 400mg, Sleepy Time Extra Tea, Biotin 1000mg, Evening Primrose Oil 1300mg, Vitamin E 400mg, Calcium 500mg, Vitamin D 350mg

Essential Oils: Whisper Blend

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House Swap

Another extended dream from two nights ago. I awoke several times between scenes but it continued.

House Swap

I was standing with my husband next to a newly purchased five gallon container of paint. A man walks by and stops. He asks if he can exchange something for our paint. My husband heartily agrees. He hands over the paint and the man gives us a huge pile of things from a wagon.

The next thing I know we are swapping entire households. I go inside the house of the man to look for things I want and pick out two boxes of wood floor cleaner. I completely ignore the tackle box of fishing supplies and other outdoor gear piled next to it. I go outside and our car is packed full of things and our family is ready to leave.

We get to our new home and it is in a different state, I believe the state of Virginia. We look around and find the house acceptable and nice. I remember my husband leaves and I am left home alone quite a bit and have time to think. I remember thinking, “I don’t even remember our old house now”. I also remember that I was alone with our baby.

My husband comes in and says he is starting a moving company. He shows me a packet of papers with my private information on them. I think it is my credit report. He says he is starting the company using my name and credit. I am shocked but do not tell him no.

I go into the back room and see that it is empty but nicely decorated. There is a shower in the middle of the room, which is odd, and large windows take up the entire back wall. There is a glass door that leads outside but I look at the window on the other side and see that it has a wooden shade drawn over it. I can see people outside and green from the trees and grass. I think about ways to rearrange the room so the shower is not in the middle.

I turn my focus to the outside and end up standing outside with my three children. It is a beautiful back yard! There is a large swimming pool in the middle and rock landscaping and waterfalls. There are neighbors wandering around with their children as if it is there place. I run around telling them to leave and decide that I want to put up a fence.

We continue to enjoy the pool and my husband joins us. My children are running about and I am exploring. I can see the green hills in the background and a teak wood fence in the back. There are also four small hot tubs at each of the four corners of the yard. I remember thinking the central pool represented the “heart” and the hot tubs represent each of the four elements. The large pool is in the center and there is a patch of grass near it where my family is sitting enjoying the day.

My youngest son wanders too close to the edge of the pool and falls in. I immediately jump in, clothes and all, and retrieve him. He is safe.

I then walk to the back of the yard taking pictures to share with family because this new place is amazing to me. I click a few photos of the back yard and fence. In one photo I see a black smoky looking form. Its face is evil looking with large, empty eyes and mouth wide open as if to bite someone. I am not afraid of it and just say aloud to myself, “Wow, I wonder where that came from”.

moor2I am then looking out the back windows at the hills and the sunrise as my oldest daughter prepares to go to school. We watch as the bus travels a mountain road toward us and I feel peaceful and happy. It is a place I want to stay and although I do not have a job I am fine with that. I decide I want to explore the town at some point and decide to do so the next day.

When I wake up I am confused by the dream because it felt so real and I have trouble determining if it was real or not. I wonder what it means and suspect I am being asked to move forward with something. Healing perhaps?

Extended Dreams

I have not yet shared the occurrences of what I will call “extended dreams” yet because it was not yet known to me. However, I am certain now of the existence of such a dream and the purpose of it.

Extended Dream

This is night two of a dream that goes on all night despite my waking and staying awake and even trying to not dream the same dream. The vividness and detail of the dream sequence cannot be ignored, nor can the very obvious messages and purpose. I am calling this phenomenon an extended dream. It may have another name but I don’t have time to research it. Please let me know if there is such a term so I can use it from now on. 🙂

This is night two of an extended dream sequence. I spent most of the day yesterday contemplating whether to write out another dream sequence since it followed me most of the day, always at the back of my mind. Last night’s is similar so I guess I need to inspect these phenomenon more closely.

Rather than write it all out in detail (which would take way too long), I will summarize it.

The dream sequence repeats on a theme which is that I am either being propositioned for sex or sexual advances are subtly being made toward me. In all instances I am not afraid but very cautious and avoidant. Sometimes the person is a stranger and other times someone I know. This is not the first time this theme has presented itself.

Almost Rape

I was asleep in a bed in an unfamiliar room. I was “at work” but resting.

A man climbed into bed with me. I was not asleep but pretended to be and became very cautious. Why was a man in my bed?

He moved in very close to me, spooning with me. I remained quiet and I heard him express to himself in a whisper, “I wish she would wake up”.

I finally moved and confronted him. He moved in to kiss me and I resisted, turning toward the bedside phone and grabbing it. I picked it up and it was already connected. I heard static and voices on the line. I told the man, “I am calling for help. They will come get you”. He got out of bed and began to leave and I heard voices in the hall. A man and a woman in camouflage approached and said they had heard my call. The promptly took the man away. I felt relieved.

I woke up at this point for a while, asking to astral and was denied.

The dream resumed when I fell asleep. I left the room to visit a friend. She was tall with short blonde hair. I felt uneasy for some reason as I sat and spoke with her and her husband. I suddenly had the idea that I should tell them about the rape. While telling them about it I recalled to myself, “It was a dream, though” but I kept talking as if it were real.

I got plenty of sympathy and the woman went into the other room. The husband, who had reddish orange hair and was familiar to me, came over to me and placed his hand on my left shoulder. I suddenly felt very uncomfortable and knew he was coming onto me. I pretended like nothing was going on and he spoke to me about how sorry he was, that no one should be treated that way. He continued to move in close and I could feel his breath on my neck.

His wife came in and he withdrew. I thought to myself, “He is going to keep doing this and I won’t be able to resist”. Part of me wanted to embrace him.

I went outside to get into my car and climbed inside. The seat was in the middle and far up, as if elevated. I could see the control panel and it was like a space ship. The red-haired man was behind me. I got in and told him I had to adjust the seat. I sat in it and pushed a lever but noticed that we were already moving. I told him, “I haven’t even put the keys in!” He told me to steer the car, so I did as I put in the keys and it started up.

The man said he had the address of the attempted rapist. He showed me a paper with it written on it. All I remember now is that is was at the number 101. He gave me directions and I drove the car along a city street that quickly turned into a highway overpass. The speed limit dropped to 25mph and I was nervous as I drove high above the other roads.

I woke at this time and stayed awake again asking to astral. I again heard, “No”.

When I fell back to sleep the dream resumed. I was in front of what appeared to be a casino. I saw this stepped machine and tried to drive my car up it. I instead rammed into it and immediately apologized to the woman behind the counter. I saw I had damaged my car but not the machine. She asked an assistant to look at the machine which promptly fell apart. She told me i had to wait 40 minutes so I told the red-haired man and he went off to look for the rapist.

energyhealingAs I waited I spoke with the Asian lady asking her how she would prove I broke her machine and telling her it was not really broken. I recognized the cameras and gave up and she told me of her dream to become a car salesman. I thought it stupid as I listened to her. I resolved myself to have to pay for my crime.

It was then that I seemed to be both myself and a dark haired man. The Asian woman, who I can see clear as day, watched as I inspected the other casino machines. There was a large, fist sized gold coin and she said, “You found a quarter”. She then told me to do something, so I humored her and did it. She smiled and said, “You won!” and it was thousands of dollars. She took a portion to pay for the damage I had made and handed me a pile of odd looking over-sized green bills. I knew it was $70,000+ dollars and I heard the thoughts of the man (who was also me but not me) and said to him, “You are going to let her keep it, aren’t you?” when I recognized the intent to let her have what she wanted: her own car sales business. I felt happy for her and happy to help her have her dream but at the same time I was completely confused. Only a stupid person would give up that amount of money! Yet the man who was also me did it without reservation and with complete joy.

I awoke still feeling the conflict and wondering about the dream.

I again asked to astral and was told, “No”. I asked why and heard, “Your heart” and along with that came a message that I was healing past hurt, hurt that was done to me and that I had done to others. This healing trumped any OOB exploration. I immediately knew that I was still holding much pain from the many lives where I had been sexually abused or assaulted. I am thankful I do not feel the pain in the present. The pain I have inflicted upon others is also a burden I bear and it causes me to distrust myself. Every dream of sexual advancement is me trying to open up to myself and then rejecting myself. Sigh.

Sudden Past Life Memory

My left leg was aching and both legs were restless. I also felt such a heavy weariness come over me that I could not ignore. I went upstairs and got in bed, covering my eyes to help ease the headache I had all day.

I had to change positions several times because my leg kept throbbing with a strange electrical pulsing pain. I wondered briefly if it was sciatica but the thought passed quickly as I fell into the happy bliss of the in-between.

Paralyzed

It was then that I was aware of being in a house with several other people. I was in a wheelchair being wheeled around and could see the brown wood of the structure I was in. There was a door immediately in front of me and I was talking to my brother, mother and father who were huddled around me. I was also very aware that I was a man and the fact that I could not move my legs.

I began to wake up in the midst of talking with my family and when I did I struggled to determine which reality was real. Was the dream what was really happening? Or was it me, laying in bed, that was real?

I opened my eyes and still struggled to determine where I was, who I was and what was going on. My legs were not hurting, though, and I think this is what ultimately brought me back to reality.

Early 1800s

Once I was able to locate myself in present time, I thought about my “dream” and knew instantly that it was no dream. I had remembered a past life. A past life where I had been hurt and lost most if not all feeling in my legs. And there was pain with it similar to the shooting, electrical pain I had been feeling.

I wondered when the life was and knew it was the early 1800’s. I smiled, congratulating myself, but did not seek anymore information about the life. I did not want to unintentionally cause myself more harm than good. If done improperly, a past life can bring into the present life aspects of it to include pain, upset and other irrational behavior/thought. Since I had already had pain that caused me to need to lay down, I did not want to intensify it. Plus, it had gone and I felt better. I wanted to keep it that way.

It still amazes me, though, how suddenly and spontaneously some of my past lives have come to me. This one came with the sensation of sitting in the wheelchair and feeling the hardness of the seat. I also felt it being rolled around, its wheels bumping roughly on the floor. It was so vivid and real. I didn’t even know they had wheelchairs that long ago! So cool.

A Time of Adjustment – Message from the High Council

It has been one of those days for me where I continue to get a message over and over: you are adjusting, you are adjusting, you are adjusting.

I finally asked for clarification. This is the answer I got:

In the next few months expect exponential change for you and others like yourself who are in the fourth stage of awakening. To clarify, the term “stage” is merely used to help you better understand where you stand in this process of acclimation. For you, and others like you, there is a mental adjustment being made specifically altering the way you think, the way you judge, the way you perceive others and your environment. With this adjustment also comes understanding that you are not alone in this universe nor are you alone in this world nor are you alone in the body BUT you are but one in a million upon million upon trillion of others individualized souls striving for a return the One; to Wholeness. This adjustment period will cause you to think and over think and then over think some more. You will doubt that what you are thinking is even in fact your own thought because at times these thoughts will seem so alien, so outright ridiculous to you, that you will reject them in entirety only to be puzzled to find yourself once again thinking those same thoughts. The thoughts and patterns of thinking will not be like what you are use to yet they are YOU in your most utterly beautiful of states.

For the time being, for approximately three weeks from the full moon, you will find that your mind may seem empty and your head painfully noticeable to you. Headaches, energy sensations, ringing, dizziness, visual fluctuations, sounds and other phenomenon will be noticed but not unbearable. Know that you are not alone in these sensations nor are they indicative of something dire. They are merely evidence of your adjustment so look upon them as such and do not be alarmed.

During this adjustment period also you will be quite stable in other areas of your life. Enjoy this time and the moments of calm and certainty that befall you. Because in time you will become more and more acutely aware of changes which need to be made. No this is not another turn-your-life-upside-down period but you may at first feel it is such. It will simply be asked of you to consider once again if you are in fact truly living up to your potential; your capability; your purpose. As you probably have noticed this question is asked of you often. This also is for a purpose and you will notice that you begin to answer the question with more certainty every time it is presented to you for consideration.

You are close, Dear one. Hold tight to your knowingness, your Divinity, your Truth.

I will ask of those reading this to not concern yourself with the mention of a fourth stage and to not get caught up in questions asking what current stage you are in. If you are in a similar position as myself in this process then this message will ring true to you. Otherwise, it may not.

Also, the thoughts and patterns of thinking mentioned above are not negative ones. They align with your purpose. For me, I have had thoughts hit me out of the blue to do things to help people. For example, I keep getting the thought to visit the homeless people in my community and offer them Reiki treatments free of charge. This is very unlike me yet it is very much aligned to my purpose. When I get them I immediately think, “Why am I thinking that??”

Current Symptoms of the “Shift”

I figured it was about time that I share some of the odd sensations and physical issues I have been having since my last update.

Current Symptoms

  • Headache, especially in the mornings and at night
  • Stomach upset in the morning
  • Energy sensations in third eye, crown and base of head
  • Deep sleep
  • Vivid dreams often with messages
  • Upper back stiffness
  • Lower back (pelvis) stiffness
  • Leg pain (feels like “growing pains” from youth)
  • Restless energy in legs
  • Ringing in ears (mostly right ear)
  • Dry, flaky skin that is manageable but irritating
  • Increased thirst
  • Visual anomalies (seeing flashes of light, colored streamers coming out of son, etc)
  • Tiredness/lack of motivation
  • Periods of total calm
  • Odd, heavy energy that descends over crown of head
  • Sleep disturbances

Coping Mechanismsclary-calm-did-you-know

This is what I have been doing to handle some of my symptoms:

  • Upset stomach – I drink a glass of water and eat something calming like oatmeal with fruit
  • Leg restlessness and pain – Put feet up and/or meditate to ground energy
  • Dry skin – Wash face with grapeseed oil, limit harsh chemicals
  • Increased thirst – Drink!
  • Back pain – Yoga, stretching, exercise
  • Headache – Ask for healing, rarely I take Ibuprofen
  • Tiredness/lack of motivation – When tired, I try to sleep; for motivation I go outdoors
  • Sleep disturbances – Meditate, focus on heart chakra, let it pass without fixating on it

These are life changes I have made that have either eased or completely eliminated my symptoms:

  • Drinking mineral water with apple cider vinegar in the morning with daily probiotic
  • Limiting gluten (not gluten-free, I can’t do that)
  • Limiting sugar and refined carbohydrates
  • Drinking alkaline water from Kangen machine daily (usually 1 gallon or more)
  • Eating organic as often as possible
  • Eating 3 or more servings of veggies daily
  • Stopped using antiperspirant deodorant completely

Current DoTERRA Essential Oil Usage

  • ClaryCalm/Monthly Oil Blend– aids in self-acceptance, expressing one’s inner child, enhances sexuality, promotes balance
  • Whisper/Women’s Oil Blend – assists in balancing masculine/feminine energies; calms anger and other negative emotions
  • Patchouli – helps individuals be more grounded and stable
  • Serenity/ Calming Oil Blend – calms negative feelings, promotes forgiveness of self and others, assists in relieving self-criticism and judgement of others/self

Three Dreams

Last night I had some odd dreams.

United

I was in a college dorm with a short, dark-haired man. I was looking for a toilet the entire time accompanied by a huge urge to have a bowel movement (when I woke up I only had to urinate). The man with me was discussing our future marriage, indicating it was in the near future. He wrote down something on a piece of paper. It said our marriage “would adhere to the Jewish tradition and follow the Kabbalah”. There was also written a statement relating to our purpose which was to unite the entire world in a similar way. I recall recognizing this man was Jewish and wondering why this was present in my dream along with such an odd message.

Interpretation

A bowel movement in a dream represents ridding one’s self of old habits and patterns of thinking. Since I did not actually use the restroom in my dream then it could indicate there is a need for me to rid myself of old habits and patterns of thinking. The message about the Kabbalah is curious to me as I do not know much about it yet it was very obviously meant to alert me to the unification of myself with my Higher Self (merging). There also is a message that this process applies to the entire world, not just to me.

Plants in the Drain

I wandered into a large, public bathroom. It was in disrepair. The toilets were all clogged or broken and as I looked around for a usable one, I came upon a group of sinks bunched together in the center of the bathroom. When I looked into them there was what appeared to be plants growing out of the drains. The planets looked normal at firs but upon further inspection they moved as if alive and their bases were flesh colored with blood-filled veins that pulsed. They were very gross and I withdrew from them, suddenly worried they would grow large and surround me.

Interpretation

Bathrooms are symbolic of self-renewal and a need to purify one’s self. The drain is symbolic of the need to purge pent up emotions and/or obstacles. The fact that a human-like plant comes out suggests that my emotions if not confronted could get out of control and have a life of their own.

testSentencing

In this final dream I was with a group of young girls being instructed on how to be more positiveand happy. The teacher asked a girl to demonstrate for the class. The girl stepped forward, smiling. She moved her hands to her face, gliding them an inch or so above her cheeks, down around her chin and neck to her heart space. There she rested them over her heart and her face glowed. The woman then asked us all to hold up our hands so she could inspect them. When I showed her my hands she said they were very large and masculine when they should be feminine. I explained it was because I did strength training.

I was then sent along with another group of both men and woman to a room where I was to fill out a “test”. I passed a table loaded with chocolate but it resembled manure so did not eat any.

Inside I laid down next to a man and a white sheet was placed over me. We were then given instructions on how to take the test and all agreed to vote the same way and allow a young girl to stay home. I felt like a part of the jury in a trial. I recall there being 13 total votes.

The test was given and I began to fill out my test. The entire time the man next to me was coming onto me, playing footsie with me and getting very close. I ignored him and thought briefly about breaking my agreement. I wondered to myself, “What if I vote the other way?”

Then the man next to me was replaced with another man. He was the chatty sort and said to me about the other man, “He wanted to have sex with you”. I recall acknowledging this but not being interested either way. My husband woke me up so the dream stopped there.

Interpretation

I am not sure about this dream’s symbolism but I believe I was being given messages about how to reconnect with my feminine aspect and my heart. The voting is odd to me and I suspect I was considering some option regarding this life and my choices.  When I awoke I wanted to return to the dream. I felt like something important had been interrupted. The most memorable of my dreams was the message about the Kabbalah.